Roses And Thorns

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-I don't want my heart to be consumed by hate. 

I convinced myself that I could hate you, allowing the flames of that anger to engulf me whenever your memory surfaced.

Eventually, I grew weary of nurturing these negative feelings towards you and began to find strength in not letting your existence affect me.

I was tired of letting the past dictate my present and wanted to look forward to my future, regardless of our separation.

Life had to continue without you, and I deserved closure.

It took time for me to truly grasp the reality of you and those around you.

I realized you were better off out of my life.

Gradually, and with some pain, I started to release you from my system.

Time made a difference, somehow.

I still had moments of weakness when my first instinct was to gravitate toward you.

I found myself looking at pictures of us that once brought back happy memories, but instead of focusing on you, I began to reflect on my old self—someone I no longer recognized.

Holding that picture, I felt an emptiness and longed for a different ending, even though I knew that alternative was unlikely.

You were out of my life for various reasons, and everything was ultimately contributing to my personal growth.

I had once been too naïve and innocent for my own good.

The wound you left in my heart was deep, making it difficult to start anew on my own terms.

I needed to rediscover myself and find happiness for my own sake—not to prove I could be happy without you.

I had to stop fighting my emotions, learn to sit with them, and let them go.

I gradually learned to stand up for myself, feeling closer than ever to the strong version of myself I had always aspired to be.

I refused to let my heart be consumed by hate any longer, leaving you in my past as I returned to myself.