Topp Dogg Fanfic- Two Groups, One Heart (completed)

Chapter Twenty-Five: Guilty

Nara-Bo

It's true. I have started a side relationship with Xero. I will never forget about it. The moment I did the agreement with Xero is stuck in my head.

He took me to the candy store and Joe let us talk in the employees bathroom.

*****

He tugged on the end of my shirt. I just got back from practice and was getting out of the van. "I need to speak with you, it's urgent," Xero told me. I nodded my head and followed him all the way to the store.

Joe is behind the counter. He looked up from a paper that he's reading with shocked eyes. "Joe, I need to talk with her secretly. May I use the bathroom?" Xero asks the boy. Joe nods his head and unlocks the door.

Xero pulls me in and slams the door behind him. He walks over to me and locks lips with me. It's sweet and thrilling. My knees feel weak and I kiss him back.

"It's been a while since I did that," he says when he lets go of me. "What did you want to talk about?" I ask him shyly. He looks at the floor. "I want to talk about our relationship," he says. "I want to be with you, Nara-Bo. Even if I have to share you. I'm in love with you." I take a few steps back. My head hits the wall and I slide down to the floor to sit. Xero comes over and sits down next to me.

"Will you consider being with me? I know it's not the right thing to do, considering you're with B-Joo. We'll keep it a secret. Nobody will know. Nobody, I promise. I just want the satisfaction of you being at least partly mine. Please?" His words made my mind whirl around. If I accept him, it means I would be cheating on B-Joo. Then again, I already did cheat on B-Joo by kissing Xero.

I sigh and look Xero in the eyes. "Yes, I accept." The words made my body shake. I just did a serious crime and I can seriously hurt B-Joo. "Why am I doing this?" I say aloud. Xero wraps his arm around me. His thumb drags across my face. I didn't notice I was crying. "Because we love each other." He kisses my cheek. The kiss feels like a bolt of electricity. "Is that a good enough reason to hurt him?" I ask Xero. Xero holds me tighter. "Nara, I love you." He whispers into my ear. That was all it took for me to stop worrying for the moment.

*****

Right now I'm in the dance studio, practicing for our performance on Simply Kpop. The supervisors have been very hard on us. If we mess something up, then they'll add extra time. Plus, the stuff we have to drink for our new diet isn't holding well with my stomach. I always feel as if I'm going to be sick. My body aches.

I've been crying a lot lately. It's been more difficult to control my emotions lately. I'm sure my lack of sleep has something to do with it. Sara-Jo running to the bathroom in the middle of the night to get sick will do that.

Our choreographer makes us repeat the routine. This is the twentieth time we've been through it. We've been working on it for over an hour and I can't stand it.

After the twenty-fifth time doing the performance, our manager walks into the room to watch us do it. She shows a smile of pride. Luna-ssi is satisfied with our work that means.

I watch her through the corner of my eye. She walks over to the stereo and turns off the music. I fall to the floor at the silence that creeps across the room. All I hear is heavy breathing and groans. Then our manager claps for us. "Very good girls! Go get your dinner then meet me in the recording room. The song is ready to listen to," she informs us. She looks to the choreographer. "You come along too," she tells him.

*****

The song was amazing. It's a very upbeat song despite the lyrics. Our choreographer said he would think something up. Our manager gave him two weeks to create the steps to the dance. That means we'll have a break for two weeks. Then it'll be non-stop work.

I can't stop thinking about how much work we're going to do soon. It makes me shake in my seat with anxiety. A new dance and song means another chance at getting more fans.

When we get home, I walk into my room and turn on the light on my bed side table. My hand brushes across something and it falls to the ground. It's an envelope.

I bend down to pick it up. My name is written delicately on the front. I open the letter. There's a note inside. I read it aloud and under my breath.

"When I hear you enter your dorm, I'll make my way to the park. Come and see me. I have something special prepared. -Xero." I sigh and hold the note to my chest. I hope the surprise is food.

*****

I change into something nicer than my workout clothes. I put on a black skirt and a pink shirt with puffed sleeves that the company have me. I finish off the outfit with a pair of knee high black boots and a scrunchy for my hair. Then I leave the dorm.

It's very late, so I'm sure B-Joo won't notice anything. I run out of the dorm building and down the street to the park.

The park is lit well along the stone path. The fountain in the middle is spewing many different colors and it looks very pretty.

I suddenly feel arms wrap around me and my body turns stone cold. "Xero?" I whisper under my breath. I feel the heat rise up my face when I feel his hot breath on my neck. "You took too long. I wanted to see you sooner." It was definitely Xero's voice. It made me shiver at how smooth it was.

He kissed the soft spot behind my ear. "It's really soft back here. I should kiss behind your ears more often." His deep chuckle makes me want to gulp. "Are you hungry?" He asks me. I turn around and nod my head violently. "I'm starving!" I shout at him. He laughs some more. "Quiet, I don't want anybody to find us." He whispers. I see Xero reach down and grab something. I'm assuming it's a bag full of food or something.

He takes me hand and we walk into the trees that will shield any unwanted light. It would be bad if somebody found us. I can only see the outline of Xero as he rummages through the bag. I lean my body against a tree and watch him.

He spreads out a blanket and snaps his fingers, signaling me to sit down. The blanket is thick and comfy. I hear some plastic bags being pulled out of the bag. "We don't have very much in our dorm. I hope a simple ham and cheese sandwich is fine." I nod my head. Then I forget he can't really see me. "Yes, it's great. Thank you." I say to him.

He hands me a sandwich and I sink my teeth in. "I hope you're not thirsty, I forgot drinks." Says Xero. "Oh no," I assure him, "all I've been doing is drinking liquids. I'm tired of them." I'm already half way done with the sandwich.

When we both finish our late night snack, we sit next to each other. I lean my head on his shoulder. I shiver suddenly. "Are you cold?" he asks me. I nod my head. "I know what can make you warmer." I imagine the mischievous smirk on his face. Then he starts to kiss me.

It's slow and sweet at first, but as time passes, the kisses get deeper and heavier. I try not to think about it and just go with the flow, it makes things easier. He lays me down on the blanket. We continue to kiss until I eventually give up on trying to stay mentally conscious. I let Xero take control of me and my electrified body.

*****

I walked back to the dorms first. After getting into my pajamas and laying down, I started to cry. Guilt washed over me and tore me apart. I never even did that with B-Joo before. B-Joo never kissed me that way or made me feel that way, but I still felt awful.

The tears wouldn't stop coming. I couldn't control them. "I'm sorry B-Joo," I whispered in my bed.