Life is.... hard and frustrating

Entry 6

I had ok day I guess..... It's hard to face reality when your dreaming in a world that isn't true......

DON'T APOLOGIZE IF YOU DON'T MEAN IT!!!! I DON'T NEED MY HEART BROKEN! 

Sorry about that ;-; I have a lot on my mind at the moment honestly.... I have a lot of mixed emotions in my head..... I want scream, sometimes I want to cry, sometimes I just want to run away and scream at myself for being so naive and for trusting too easily. I'm too nice and I feel like that's a bad thing but a few songs remind me about that. 

Back to you by Selena Gomez

Took you like a shot

Thought that I could chase you with the cold eveningLet a couple years water down how I'm feeling about you (feeling about you)

And every time we talkEvery single word builds up to this moment and I gotta convince myself I don't want it, even though I do (even though I do)

You could break my heart in two but when it heals, it beats for you I know it's forward but it's trueI wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to 

When I'm lying close to someone else

You're stuck in my head and I can't get you out of it if I could do it all again I know I'd go back to youI know I'd go back to youI know I'd go back to you

I never got it right playing and re-playing old conversations 

Overthinking every word and I hate it'cause it's not me ('Cause it's not me)

And what's the point in hiding and everybody knows that we got unfinished business and I regret it if I didn't say this isn't what it could be (isn't what it could be)

You could break my heart in two 

But when it heals, it beats for youI know it's forward but it's true I wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to

When I'm lying close to someone else 

You're stuck in my head and I can't get you out of it if I could do it all again I know I'd go back to youI know I'd go back to you I know I'd go back to you I go back to you I go back to you

I know I said I wasn't sure but I go back to you I know I'd go back to you

You could break my heart in two but when it heals, it beats for you I know it's forward but it's true 

Won't lie, I'd go back to you

You know, my thoughts are running loose

It's just a thing you make me do and I could fight, but what's the use I know I'd go back to you

I wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to

When I'm lying close to someone else

You're stuck in my head and I can't get you out of it if I could do it all again

I know I'd go back to you I'll go back to you I'll go back to you I know I'd go back to you(Go back to you, go back to you)(Go back to you, go back to you)(Go back to you, go back to you)

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Imma a dog too by Toni Romiti

  ohh oh ohhhhh

ohhh ohh oh ohhhh
ayeee hee ayeeeee
You thought you had a fool
That's cool
You went behind my back
That's cool
But I can play this game like you
If he a dog
Bitch imma a dog too
Ain't nobody got it like me
Did you forget that
All these niggas like me
And They'd be to let me be wifey
So how could you be so damn triflin
When you hear about the dirt that ive done
You gon be so fuckin hurt
Cuz i'm the one
You thought that you could just go out
And have your fun
But I can play the same game except I won
Two wrongs don't make it right
But I'll be damned if I don't put up a fight
You say i'm wrong cuz I cheated outta spite
I say you wrong cuz you cheated every night
So.
If he a dog
Im a dog too
If he a dog
Im a dog too
If he a dog
Im a dog too
You try to play me but the jokes on you
If he a dog
Im a dog too
If he a dog
Im a dog too
If he a dog
Im a dog too
You try to play me but the jokes on you
Two can play this game you call love
If you love me then you wouldn't be a dog
If you love me then you wouldn't creep at all
If this is love then this ain't what I want
So you do you and Imma do me
No sense in playing with each others feelings
But every time i go you beg me not to leave
So what the hell i'm I suppose to think
When you love someone you prey that they would change
But you soon accept they will always stay the same
And they'll always try to treat you like a lame
So in return you treat them the same way
Two wrongs don't make it right
But I'll be damned if I don't put up a fight
You say i'm wrong cuz I cheated outta spite
I say you wrong cuz you cheated every night
So.
If he a dog
Im a dog too
If he a dog
Im a dog too
If he a dog
Im a dog too
You try to play me but the jokes on you
If he a dog
Im a dog too
If he a dog
Im a dog too
If he a dog
Im a dog too
You try to play me but the jokes on you
If he a dog imma a dog imma doggg
If he a dog imma a dog imma doggg
If he a dog imma a dog imma doggg
If he a dog imma a dog imma doggg  

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Listening to music calms me down so that's what I'm doing now^^Hopefully it can cheer me up.. That's for today *~* Bye everyone