Life is.... hard and frustrating

Part 39

My heart is beating too fast
I've been told to stop being so negative
Don't you think I tried?
I try my best to be happy and myself
But I get hit, scarred and bruised
Just for that
If I do something wrong
I get hurt
If they say I'm having a so called "attitude"
I get hurt
I just want someone to love me for me
And not hurt me and try to make me feel like I have to be someone else
It hurts
A lot
I just wanted to hugged and told everything is gonna be alright
You think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be ok
I tried cutting myself before but I stopped because I was told if I did you'd leave me
I don't want that
You're the only person I have left
The only person that actually loves me for how I am
I love you
I'm sorry for how I've been acting
Just things that's been going on
Makes me feel like I'm about to lose someone else
I'm sorry for feeling the way I do
I'm not realizing how my attitude effects others
I'm sorry for all I do