Life is.... hard and frustrating

Part 30

Why do I always mess shit up?
Why do I always get upset?
Why am I always mad?
Why do I have negative emotions?
I wish I never had them
It makes me into a weak person
I don't like showing those emotions
It ends up starting trouble
It always get someone mad
It always makes me feel like it's my fault that something happens
Why can't I have a normal day?
Why can't I be normal?
I just want to make you happy
I just want to see you laugh
Smile
Anything that brings you joy
I'm sorry for all I've done
Someone else's words made me upset
And off of how that person was
I should've just trusted you instead of second guessing the situation
I'm naive
I'm dumb
I can even concentrate for god sake
I don't know what's wrong with me
I'm a mess
That can't even do one thing right it seems
I try my best
Seems like my best isn't enough