My poems

Paralyzing

This feeling's paralyzing,
I can barely get the words out.
Please reach out to me,
because I feel like my time's running out.
I want to live in love and spread happiness,
but I feel it slowly running out.
I get into a place in my head
where I feel so scared and vulnerable.

If it makes any sense,
I'd wish I could be with you.
At least then I wouldn't be alone,
at least then I wouldn't have to feel this alone.
I'm calling out, I'm calling out to you.
If I have to go on like this,
then I'll only grow in my doubts.
I can't feel like I used to
because I'm too different.
I'm in such constant desperation,
I can't even get the right words out
to accurately describe myself
and it's so frustrating.
This feeling's paralyzing.