"Please, I'm sorry"

"Listen, I'm sorry"

***TRISH'S POV***

I got up and opened the balcony doors. I looked down and there stood Brooklyn. I was extremely pissed off about it but a very tiny part of me wasn't.

"What do you want?!" I said annoyed.
"I've come to apologise. I'm~"he said before being cut off.
"Fuck your apologies. Goodnight" I said, cutting him off. I went to close the doors when he called me.

"Listen, I'm sorry" he started.
I sighed and let him continue.

"I know what I did was wrong and I'm sorry. I was scared and angry. I didn't know how I felt nor did I know what I was doing. I wasn't myself in that moment. I just let whatever it was take over me. I shouldn't have done that but I couldn't stop it. The argument we had today and the arguments we've had in the past few weeks, if I could I would take them all back" He said, sounding saddened.

The words 'if I could I would take them all back' were bullshit. I am not falling for those. I did it then but I'm not gonna do it now. Never again am I going to let those words fool me. Never!

"Brooklyn, all I was ever trying to do was get my point across but you got angry and flipped. Don't tell me your excuses for it" I replied.
"Can I come inside and explain?" He asked.
"Yeah, climb up" I said.
"Remember what happened last time I tried to climb up?" He answered.
"Come through the back door. I won't be a minute" I said, running downstairs.

Theo sat, still up watching tv. I looked at him, shrugged and continued walking into the kitchen, to the back door. As I opened it, Theo game flying in to the kitchen as Brooklyn went to step a foot in.

"What's he doing here?" Theo asked, stopping Brooklyn from entering.
"You're not my dad Theo! You can't tell me who is allowed here and who isn't!" I wined slightly.
"Not answering my question. What's he doing here?" He asked again.

I need to think of a great excuse. Something that he won't question. I hate thinking on my feet because I say the most ridiculous things. That usually land me in trouble or leave me looking like a weirdo.

"I'm horny and need dick, so leave me alone" I said grabbing Brooklyn's wrist and dragging him inside and up the stairs.
I could feel Theo giving us a dirty/shocked look as we went upstairs.

I sat at the top of my bed and Brooklyn sat at the end.

"Explain then" I said being impatient.

**BROOKLYN'S POV**

My hands were shaking. Not knowing what was going to happen next made me feel nervous but I've got to. I need to tell her everything. The truth. Why I was like that. I can't leave her not knowing. She's been screwed over by one too many guys. I'm not gonna be the next one to do that to her.

"It started when you told me that you might be pregnant. I was scared. I knew it was Rye's because we haven't had unprotected sex. Not once. So that kinda made it worse. I honestly would've been there for you, all the way through it but a part of me knew I couldn't. It was a tiny part. Very tiny but it grew into something bigger. I kept over thinking it and it some how became a part of me. I didn't want it to. It just did. I was honestly so scared Trish. I was panicking. Neither of us have a proper proper job so how could we afford to raise a child. Plus I was scared of what the roadies might say. And what your fans would say. You'd get hate, baby, and I didn't want that. I thought more about myself. And a part of me was saying to leave you, let you raise that baby by yourself. I tried to fight that part but lost. And the easiest part was breaking your heart. Act like someone I was not" I said telling her the truth.

"But why? If you just told me straight then I wouldn't have been so mad and upset. Brooklyn I would cry myself to sleep, hoping for an answer. Why was you getting all flirty with your fans? Why was you getting mad when I tried to explain how I felt? Why would you flip whenever I tried to bring it up? Fuck! Brooklyn I thought there was something wrong with me?! And it couldn't have been the baby thing because when I got the test back from the doctors it came back negative and you know that!" She said, her voice raised and tears started to stream down her face.
"I know and I'm sorry. Deeply sorry. I'm sorry about pushing you. I'm sorry about shouting at you. I'm sorry about everything" I said looking down at my hands.

"I want to forgive you but I just can't. The last time I felt so scared of a man was with Chase. Chase used to cheat on me and hit me! Yet I thought that was because he loved me. I was young and naive. I believed his lies. Rye came along and he taught me different. Yet he, like Chase, cheated on me. But I wasn't gonna stick around long enough for him to do it again. And then there was you. Now you made me think that guys were different. You made me feel special. When we got that baby scare I was scared at first but that went away. I saw how you were with little kids and the first thing I thought is that you'd be an amazing dad. A fantastic father. I know you're only young but I wasn't going to expect you to do it. And you should've known that. Even more so, the fact it isn't even your child so I wouldn't of even thought of doing that to you" she cried.

"I'm sorry for making you feel like that. I didn't want to make you scared. I just didn't know how to react at all" I replied. All I could say was the truth. She sat in silence. I started to cry at the realisation of what I did.

"I don't care. Your apologies don't mean anything. The most common thing of all of this is that Rye is there" she said turning away.
"What do you mean" I asked her, slight shock in my voice.
"R..Rye is a..always there. A..At least with Rye I k..know where I stand and h..how we f..feel about e..each other..r" She stuttered.
"What do you mean?" I asked again, tears started to fall from my eyes again.
"I had sex with Rye today" she said clearly.
"H..How?" I asked. I wasn't gonna get angry. Nor was I going to get angry at Rye. I felt broken but I don't blame her. Honestly I would've done the same, if I was her. I wasn't giving her the love and attention she needed. So she can do that.
"How do you think you idiot?" She said shocked by what I just asked.
"Not like that! How could you have sex with him?" I said.
"Do I really need to explain to you how it works?!" She said jumping up.
"Not how did you have sex with him. But how did it come across. What happened?" I replied.

She took a deep breathe and told me.

"I'm not mad if that's what you were expecting. I would've done the same, if I was you. I wasn't being a good boyfriend. I wasn't satisfying your needs. I should've been there but I wasn't. I threw insult after insult at you instead of comforting you. He gave you what you needed. I didn't"I said. Honesty in every word. I grabbed her hand and started rubbing circles on the back of it with my thumb. She gave me a shocked look but didn't pull her hand away.

"I'm not expecting you to forgive me but can we just sort this out" I asked.
"Good because it's gonna take a lot for me to forgive you" She said sounding strict.
"I understand" I said humming slightly. She rubbed her eyes and yawned. She walked round to the over side of the bed and climbed in.
"I'm not leaving you to walk home at 2am. I maybe mean but not that mean. There's a pair of your joggers over there. I know you hate sleeping in jeans and there is no way I'm letting you sleep in my bed with nothing but your boxers on" she said laying down.

I took off my clothes and put the bottoms on. I climbed into the bed and laid next to her. I kissed her forehead and she whines slightly. I smiled at it and put my arm around her. I started drawing circles on her hand as she drifted off. If she had the energy to she would've pushed my arm off of her. But she didn't. I liked doing this because in this moment I felt like I could keep her safe. Like no danger could come to her.

I rested my head on her shoulder, she winced and shook me off. Her hair moved and it revealed a big mark from where I had pushed her earlier. A big purple bruise from the push. I moved the covers and looked at her waist. Red,purple and blue. The colours that were on the top of her leg and her waist. I felt shocked and ashamed.

I did that. I did that to my princess.