"Please, I'm sorry"

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"Ermm Alex, you should see this"

No. No. No. This cannot be happening. It can't. I..I'm too young to be a mum. How am I going to even raise a baby and manage a singing career. Neither me or Mikey have a proper solid job. I mean singing it's great. I get to do what I love and earn money from it but what happens if my job starts to go wrong. A..And I stop earning money.

My hands started to shake. And my breathing became heavy.

"Alex, are you okay?" Jorja asked, looking at me concerned. I tried to speak but I couldn't.
I sat down and tried to steady my breathing. I had no luck. Jorja passed me Andy's inhaler and I tried that. Luckily that worked.

"I'm scared, Jorja, I can't do this" I said, tears filling my eyes.
"It'll be okay. You can. It's only scary now because you're only young. But it'll be okay" she said, rubbing my back.
"Yeah, I'm only young. What if Mikey decides to leave me. What am I going to do then?!" I panicked and started crying.
"He wouldn't do that to you. And if he did. You have us" she said moving a strand of my hair. I know he wouldn't leave me. But there's one thing about this which he probably will. And he'll hate me forever.

**MIKEY'S POV**

"I dare you to, Andy." Jack said pushing Andy towards the water fountain.
"I am not jumping in there" Andy laughed.
"Aww. Come on" Jack begged.
"Nope not at all" Andy replied "How about you do that?"
"No, I'll break a leg" Jack laughed, walking along the side of the pool of water.

"Hey can I borrow your phone a sec" I asked Jack.
"Yeah why?" He replied passing it to me.
"I need to call Alex" I lied. As soon as I had his phone, Andy pushed Jack into it.
"Did you break a leg?" Andy laughed.
Jack climbed out soaked head to toe. I took a picture and posted it on Instagram.
"I hate the both of you" He said slightly annoyed.
"No you don't. You love us" both me and Andy said at the same time. He ran up to Andy and went to hug him. Andy ran towards the caravan site.
"Don't you dare hug me, Duff" Andy shouted before he started running. I laughed at them both and carried on walking towards the site.

I walked in to the sight of Alex cooking in the kitchen.
"How do you get even prettier every time I see you?" I said hugging her from behind and kissing her cheek.
"I love you. Can we talk later?" She asked.
"I love you too. Yeah why?" I replied.
"I need to tell you something" she smiled.
I hummed an 'okay' and continued hugging her.

**BACK TO ALEX'S POV**

I waited until Andy, Nele, Jorja and Jack had gone out to tell Mikey.

"What was it you wanted to tell me?" He asked sitting up. I took the test, I put in my pocket earlier, out. Slowly I handed it to him. Mikey looked at it shocked.
"I..I.. errmmm I..I.." he stuttered.
He looked at me then my stomach then back at me then to the test. He couldn't believe it.
"I'm going to be a dad? Ha I'm going to be a dad. IM GOING TO BE A DAD" he repeated, jumping up in excitement. He jumped around, he seemed so happy. I don't wanna tell him but I have to. I can't do this. No! I have to. I can't do this to him. This is gonna break his heart. I can't lie to him.
"M..Mikey sit down" I said, my voice broke and tears started to appear in my eyes "I'm sorry. So sorry". Tears started going down my cheeks.
"W..Why are you sorry?" He said sounding sad.
I can't do this. I really can't but I have to.
"Hey baby, don't cry" he said going to hug me and wipe away the tears. I pushed him away.
"M..Mikey t..the b..baby. It...It's~"I broke down. Why did I let myself do that to Mikey. I loved him more than anything.
"W..What about it?" He sat in front of me, sadness was the only expression visible on his face.

"Micheal Patrick Cobban, I love you no matter what. I am so sorry about this. I love you more than anything. No matter what happens I love you" I said through the tears.
"A..Alex tell me what it is. Your scaring me" He said, worry in his voice.

"The baby it's not yours" I cried even more.
"W..who's is it?" He asked.

"It's... It's Harvey's..."