"Please, I'm sorry"

Painful Truths

*SLIGHT BIT OF SMUT*

My fingers traced over the marks on her body. My heart dropped. A tear left my eye. I did that. I took a deep breath and swallowed. I did that to her. Her skin so fragile and gentle. I did that. I hurt my princess.

I rolled on to my back and stared up at the ceiling. Thoughts of destruction went off like fireworks in my head. I hated myself. I let this thing take over me and it controlled me. It led me to do that. I hate myself so much. I wanted to scream and smash things up but I couldn't. And I wouldn't. I didn't want to wake my baby and wrecking things is not the answer. Never has. Never was. Never will be. Millions of possibilities of how I could've prevented this from happening bounced back and forth in my head like it was a game of tennis. I fell asleep to these thoughts.

I woke up to light seeping through the curtains. I yawned and rolled over. She was always so cute when she was asleep. So peaceful. The only sounds that you could hear were her little murmurs. She did sleep talk but not all the time. I listened closely, trying to put together the sentences.

"Theo...I love...Brook...Much. No...not...virgin" she murmured. I laughed to myself a little. I wonder what she is dreaming about.
"Rye...Andy...Ship....Brooklyn...I do..babies" she started fidgeting about. She started to become warm and sweating a little. Soft 'no's were all that could be heard next. I started to worry a bit. She fidgeted some more when she seemed to enter a scared/stressed state. I ran into the bathroom and wet her face cloth with cold water. I ran back into the room and woke her up.

"T. T. Wake up. Wake up" I said shaking her lightly. She woke up and started crying.
"Hey! Hey! What is it? What did you dream about?"I said wrapping an arm around her.
"It..It started off okay. It..It w..was just me and Theo messing about. H..He was teasing me w..with things. And I..I was saying that.. that I..I loved someone. Then all of a sudden I was getting married. To...To y..you but I was p..pregnant with Rye's baby. R..Rye wasn't..t happy about it. He...He started pushing me and h..hitting me. B..But then it w..wasn't Rye. It was y..you" she cried.
"Me that was pushing and hitting you?" I asked.
"Y...Yeah. It went from being Rye t..to you" She stuttered a little.
"It's okay now. I wouldn't do that to you. Not again"I said, wiping away the tears. She hummed a little and started falling back to sleep. All of a sudden her phone rang.

"It's Mariana, want me to answer it for you?" I asked her.
"No. Pass me it" She said quickly. I passed her the phone and she started chatting.

I sat up and started scrolling through Instagram.

"You did what? .... with who?.... the Clayton's boy? .... Mariiii" She said, laughing at the end.

When she hung up on the phone, she got up and put a pair of shorts on.
"I'm going down to make breakfast, you coming?" She said "Theo's gone out so it's just me and you. We can fix things over some pancakes"
"Nah I'm gonna stay up here. Just shout me when they're ready" I replied smiling. I'm glad we're fixing things. Non of this would've happened if I had just listened but because I didn't then. I am now. She ran down the stairs then came back up 10 minutes later.

"We've ran out of eggs. I'm gonna nip to the shop" she said undressing herself. I couldn't help but look. I tried not to but I couldn't help myself. She looked so pretty. From head to toe. She noticed that I was looking and came over.
"Like what you see?" She said in a low sexual voice. I tried to say something but I couldn't. It was as if I was choking on words.
"It's okay. I'm not gonna have a go at you or anything if you do. I mean, I like what I see" she said, climbing on top of me.
"Do you really?" I replied smirking slightly.
"Yes. I do" she said, kissing me. Her hands snakes around the back of my neck as I rested mine on her waist. She started to grind her waist against mine, ghosting my lips as she did so. I hated when she did this. I craved her. I tried to fight the feeling but no luck.

Soon she got off me and continued getting dressed.
"You're such a tease, Trish" I said laughing.
"Ha. I know I am" she laughed back.
"I love you" I said giggling.
"I know you do. Won't be a min" she said before leaving.

As she shut the door I got up to go to the bathroom. Shit. The effect she has on me.

**TRISH'S POV**

After teasing Brook, I left to get eggs from the shop. Why do I have everything but eggs in. Thank gosh I only live 5 minutes away from the shop.

When I got back I could hear soft moans coming from the bathroom. As I got closer the moans got louder.

"Trish~" Brook he moaned with his eyes closed.
"BROOKLYN!" I shouted, shocked at what I just walked in on.
"ARGHH!! OH MY GOD!" He screamed, dropping his phone.
I threw a towel at him and walked out.
"Clean you and my cum-covered bathroom up" I shouted as I walked down the stairs.

I quickly started on the pancake mix to try and forget what I just saw. He later came down stairs in nothing but the joggers I gave him the night before.
"I am.. Ermm~" he said before being cut off.
"We shall not speak about what just happened. Just let me know the next time you're gonna masturbate in my bathroom. Especially when it's to porn" I said, whisking the mixture.
"Ermm... it...it wasn't p..porn" he said rubbing the back of his neck.
"What was it?! WAIT I don't wanna know! In fact yes I do! What bitch or fan has sent you nudes whilst we were together" I exclaimed.
"It..it was you" He said embarrassed.
I went red and didn't say anything.

Should I feel honoured that he was wanking to a picture of me? Should I feel disgusted? I tried shake it off but it was useless. I couldn't stop thinking about it all.

"I'm sorry about it all" he said, taking a bite out of the pancake.
"I know you've said. How many more times are you gonna say it?" I replied with sarcasm in my voice.
"I don't know. I saw the bruises I left. I'm so sorry about it. Is there anything I can do to make up for it?" He asked.
"I think it's best if we stopped being together. And just remain good friends" I said, sounding sad.
"Y..Yeah. I agree" he replied sounding sad as well.
"I honestly hate to say this but we... We're not meant for a relationship. Friends with benefits or more than friends but less than a relationship sort of thing. I'm sorry. But that's just how it is" I said wanting to cry but didn't.
"I understand. You are saying what we were both afraid to admit" he said, wanting to cry himself "I love you for that"
"I love you too. So we both agree? Time to call of relationship Brosh?" I laughed a little.
"Time to call of relationship Brosh" he agreed. It hurt to say it but it needed to happen. The truth was painful but it's the truth. It's what was needed.

We sat in an awkward silence for awhile before one of us broke it.

"Come with me today?" I asked him.
"Are we planning on doing that today?" He giggled.
"Not like that! Come shopping with me, I mean. I need a dress for Alex and Mikey's wedding" I giggled back.
"I almost forgot about that. Yeah I will" he replied, checking his phone "Is it okay if Rye comes with us?"
"Yeah it is. The more the merrier. Plus I'm filming a video today" I replied.
"Alright. I best get ready then" he said heading up stairs "I won't be a min"
"Okay" I shouted up.

Maybe everything will be alright after all...