Abused love

The heaven before hell

All my life I thought that happiness was everywhere, never one day where i would feel that life was upsetting in any way.My mom and dad were always happy a smile on my mom's celestial face would always make my dad filled with glee and love, knowing that he married the right woman.Seeing them happy and so in love made me believe that one day i would find love and be just like them.Many people saw my mom as the woman who fed me ,took me to school and changed me, but she was much more than that she always had a smile on her face ,whenever she entered the room gracefully with a long hazel brown hair draped down her shoulder while her pitch black eyes stared deep in your soul knowing whether you were sad or just glad she was there,I loved her, so did my dad.One thing i will never forget was the day that she went to work and never came back home the long hours i waited by the door for her sliver range rover to pull in the driveway, how i waited for when she got out the car to run into her arms and scream "MOMMY!!!!".How i miss the hugs,the goodnight kisses ,the talks we had about our day,the walks in the park as a family the beach or even when she took my icecream and out some on my nose and we both just laughed knowing we would be together forvever.I miss her so does dad the person who killed her will get revenge for what he did to her.Losing my mom was awful my dad drank out his feelings, he would come home drunk and irritated that was when the beatings started he would take out his belt, grab my helpless hand and whisper into my ear, "If you did not look like her this would never happen ,this is all your damn fault!!!Night after night the beatings got worse but that never stopped me from going to school and just being the plain nerd they called 'Bella'.One thing i know is that i can never find love never it would be too dangerous for me and my love i could never learn to love,but who said that was going to stop them, no matter what school i go to the boys feel i would fall for them not me i am different oh yes i know that.Today is my first day at a new school that means same old Bella Kingsley the plain nerd who is always early no partying just to study ,find money to go to college.get a job and to escape this hell hole my father has trapped me in for the past eleven years since my mom left us.eleven years of scars from beatings.eleven years of being a slave under his roof,eleven years of abuse and tears but after i was ten i stopped having tears it showed i was weak but i am much stronger than that and one day he will burn in hell for what he has done to me all the injuries i sustained all the blood i lost and all the days i lied to my teacher and said 'I fell down the stairs' all that BS but i just have to stay calm,study,no friends, no boyfriends, and most importantly to not let anyone find out my secret .I just hope that this new school would be like all the rest boring and uneventful but you never know who you might meet and what you might discover.

Authors note

HI EVERYONE my name is Sarafine and this is my first story sorry if it was a little short i hope you guys like the first chapter i will be posting the second one soon but i am not sure as i have exams coming up so please try to be paitient well thats it for now so BYE!!