Abused love

Back to reality

After dreaming next to my mom's tombstone it started to get dark so i gathered my things and gently kissed the tombstone thinking and feeling that she could feel it .I didnt have enough money to take bus so i walked not that walking really bothered me i would run away from home but the sick thing is he can find me and the beatings would get worse and i wanted to make my mother proud so i have to deal with all of this everyday but no pain no scars can hurt the way my mom left me left us but i know for sure she is in a better place sometimes i wonder why she just didnt take me to work why i didnt hide in the trunk why i didnt die with her all my tears i cried were useless because i knew she was never coming back i knew that she was truly in a safe place and i was suffering here i didnt want to start cutting myself it would add on to the amount of pain i was already dealing with i didnt want to put myself in even more danger that i was already in pain it would not stop anything or help my issues i was supposed to get counciling but i never did my dad thought it would be better to just beat me senseless till i cant feel the pain anymore and it worked i feel nothing and im proud that i can not be hurt again or can I ? I arrived home tired and hurting and esatic that i saw my mom so i did some cleaning around the house as i started to clean KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK i instantly assumed it was my dad thinking he was in his drunken stage and probably forgot that he had his keys i cautiously opened the door to see Jackson and the officer that helped close my mom's case he walked in to his dismay thought i was a semihappy girl but never expected what jackson told him

"You have to help her officer you have to she cant keep living like this she cant keep pretending that she is alright when she is clearly not" Jackson said with fear in his eyes piercing through the blueness of his eyes trying to make me feel at ease but it was not going to help the depression dying within my dark colorless soul as I gazed cluelessly on going what wrong I did

"Maybe it is time we looked over your records more througly this time Bella I don't honestly think your dad was in the right state of mind to care for you in my opinion foster care was best or maybe coucilling was my choice I will inform your father that I was here I too know what he is capable of.' Said officer Micheal with a little bit of fear in his voice really ment it all those words about my dad but why was I not in foster care all the thoughts rushed through my mind like a hurricane why would the police really take his role on not getting me counsiling I could have had lived a half decent life to be honest but he denied why? Does he really hate me well I guess he does no father hits a child especially their own but he was one of those people that didn't care if you were their own it always had no excuse to hit a child he was going to jail but where did he go? Did he really abandon me like this and for what he maybe went back to the bar to drink up so tonight he can express how I ruined his life yet again when it was not my fault for something as tragic as that but who cares anymore he does no so why should I.

"Come on Bella at least spend the night with me . Officer should we at least try to do something?"

"The best that we can do right now to be honest is to not mess up anything she has to stay with him until we have more evidence to remove her as we are putting her at more risk doing this we need her to keep a low profile and act the way she is so her father would not suspect a thing so we can gather the information we need to save you from this hell hole."

"Officer this is not right!"

"It is right and I am going through with it no matter what Jackson just relax I will be ok,"

Just then there was a pounding on the door

"You have to go now get out go we can always talk tomorrow,"

He pecked me on the cheek ever so lightly and just like the wind their were gone the house was normal everything was normal now all waited was the beatings I was yet to get the brunt.

I waited for hours but the pounding stopped I shakily got up and opened the door to only see a homeless woman who had already picked up her stuff and moved along to a next home to beg I stared down the lonely road on both sides to see not one soul it was empty as a ghost town. I closed the door and crawled into my dad's bed so and as my head hit the pillow I was fast asleep and the dreams I want to come true consumed me.

Author's note

Thank you for reading I am really sorry that this chapter took so long to come I was going through some issues but I am fine now next chapter will be posted soon so keep reading and thank you for supporting this story like and share if you can