Abused love

The calm before the storm

The next morning I woke up as happy and full of energy I rolled up out of bed and finally opened up the windows for the first time in whenever I sensed I had a smile it was too good to be true but I decided just live with it and why not? I got cleaned up and took a glance in the mirror I guessed I never realized it but I really do look like my mom but I guessed I was overcome by the hurt and pain it brought me but now I was not bothered by it as she lives in me and I lived in her but now it was time to stand up for what I did believe in and say "I CAN BE WHAT I WANT" and just live on and go out to fall in love and live the life my mom made me to live and to be happy for I got ready I throw on my plaid hood jacket with my knee high leather skirt with my knee high boots and I grabbed my bag and sprinted outside to see the love of my life but I wondered did he feel the same way I guess he did but I did not want to get my hopes up I did that to much of times it was a feeling I could not control, but I think I am falling I love with him but withal that has happened I could not really think he loves me maybe because I don't know what love is really, maybe as my mom was the one who really loved me and showed me all those emotions I wish I did not have or did not think of having but one thing I dred as every teenager dreds is another day in this hellhole called High school.

"BELLAAAAAAAA!!!!!" As Scarlet runs and throws her arms around me nearly throwing me down

"Scarlet," I chuckled softly "What's up did you smoke a passing blunt again," I laughed and we both started walking to meet Jackson, "No and that was one time any way I was going to ask how did you catch the attention of the hottest and most charming boy in the world let again he is the richest so watch your back girls say your in it for the money," scarlet frowned but I shrugged it off I know what is true and no rich girl could say otherwise

"Hey beautiful," As Jackson gives me a hug and my whole body felt numb with his touch but I could not show it "Hey big man on campus," As I so desperately wanted him to keep hugging me as my body aches for his touch. To break the silence I told them I was going to class and hurried off surely leaving their faces hanging as I am the last person to ever care about school.

The day passed slowly at last it was over and I waited for Jackson to carry me to the grave as we always do, "Ready beautiful," He chuckled with a smirk on his perfectly constructed face, "As I will ever be," and we drove off. The cool winds blew across the night sky as the stars lit up the pitch black atmosphere Jackson threw across a blanket across the damp grass and we sat and I talked to my mom, "Hi Mom the days are getting better with Jackson and Scarlet around but it is hard I don't have you and I don't know how many times I'll stress on it but I love you and thank you for bringing me a miracle in the form of Jackson who I lo...." But I stopped in my tracks and sat up hoping he did not hear those words I uttered. "Look Jackson I want to know where do we stand are you going to leave me or are you gonna stay are we official or not I need to know," as my last breathe drew out I knew I made a mistake but I was shocked for what he told me, "Bella since the first day I saw you and you gave me attitude I knew you were not going to like me let alone love me I know it was going to take more of my money and rich background to win you over because you are not like them you are different you are real and I am asking this because I have fallen in love with you the very day I kissed you every time I look into your eyes I see someone worth saving and worth loving so I asking you now," As he bends on one knee and faces me, "Will you make me the happiest rich ass in the world and be my girlfriend my precious princess," I gazed down into his ocean blue eyes and knew I loved him I really loved him, "Yes Jackson yes I love you," The words were out and the silence was broken with 'I love you too'. He stood up and leaned in and kissed me and I felt on cloud nine, "I know in the stories where the guy gets the girl and then he saves the day but I got the girl and all I have to is save the world with you in my life and now I want to ask you something but please think about it," he said as he held my tiny hands in his, "Move into my house my parents think it is a great idea and I can show you off as my forever girl and my cousin comes down in a week he would love you not as much as I do but they would love you and it is a great idea and," "JACKSON' I interrupted ," Can you stop rambling so I can say yes like damn babe I would love too," He swooped me in a hug and kissed and we hurried off to my new home for my new life as everything was starting to get better and I could feel it or so I hoped as sadness and despair lurked in every corner and it was only a matter of time