Abused love

I don't know who you are anymore

Waking up to breakfast In bed a treat especially when we fell asleep together another amazing night as always but the smell of waffles and pancakes really is a treat which I love having him was a treat at most always looking for new ways to keep the relationship going strong but lets be real he is my superhero and I couldn't have it any other way.

I sneaked downstairs before anyone could have spotted me, DING DONG DING DONG 'Crap' As I was sure the door woke up everyone and I was right as everyone made their way downstairs, "Morning Princess how you sleep?" Even his sleepy self was adorable I loved it was so hot, "I'll get the door," As I rushed to the door but I wished I could have slammed it standing in the door way was my mom and my 'real' dad I never studied him before he stood with a limp but was fairly young for his supposed age he had a beard a small one and also a scar above his right eye his eyes were pools of honey, golden as it seemed it mesmerized me deeply. We made a path for them to walk by us and they led us to the living room and we all sat down in as an awkward filled the air, "What do you want mom," I was just as shocked as everyone else to know why she was here, "Well I know you said till the end of the year to move in with me," I bite my lip and turned to Jackson and Mathew who were stunned I made a decision already as were his parents," Yes I made a decision till the end of the year I believe I owe her that much at least," As I composed myself, "Well I was wondering if today you wanted to go out with us we miss you a lot and we want to get to know you again," My dad begged with pleading eyes I nodded and I left the room to get ready, "Princess," As both Jackson and Mathew barged into my room not caring if I was dressed or not I guess because they both saw me naked but say less on this ,"Whats wrong," I asked as I fixed my top and grabbed my bag but motioned for them to come inside, "First things first when you made the decision," Both eyes intrigued and curious, "The morning after the big game I called her and left a voicemail saying I would move in next year she owes me that much if you ask me," I started to head out but they blocked me, "I will be back later ok," I gave Jackson a quick kiss and hugged Mathew and headed out with my mom and dad I guess.

They were taking me to a carnival I have not been to one since I was four when I was at my happiest, "So wanna go on the rollercoaster," My dad asked I went with him to buy the tickets and we sat in the seat and with a Click we were off, slow and steady it went then the thrill of excitement came, the wind in my soft, jet black hair the sun on my skin I felt on top of the world my dad well I guess I'm calling him my dad now but his real name was Ricardo I can live with that but I will stick to dad he was scared but I know he put on a brave face for me so I held his hand while laughing, "THIS IS AMAZING," I felt unstoppable but unfortunately it did not last long the ride soon came to and end, "THAT WAS SO AMAZING," I was practically bursting of energy but my dad well he was recovering, "Are you ok," I laughed he tried to force a smile but when he saw that I was happy he was at complete ease, "I am I was waiting for this day for a long time I am so happy I finally met my daughter even if it was sixteen years late every moment now is precious to me just like how you are," He smiled as he kissed my forehead and we walked over to my mom who was beaming it made me feel like I was a kid again but how long was this going to last. We spent the whole day going on rides and having fun and making new memories, "Well its time to go but we had fun with you it reminded me of when you were little my Bella," At that moment regret struck me like a bullet, "Yeah before you left for more than a decade but at least you remembered me this time," Her face falls I know I upsetted her but I didn't care why did she leave me in the first place, "Now that's enough your mother loves you," He struck a nerve, "LOVES," I scoffed , "If she loved me she would have saved me when she knew he was really a drunken asshole he beat me every day when he came home or if I spoke out of place or if food was not there when he came not like we had enough food we were broke we moved so much times when people suspected he was beating me did you care?" Tears swelling in my eyes she tried to pull me but I pull away, "You chose to leave but why not take your angel with you I don't know who you are anymore mom but if eleven years made you realize I wasn't a disappointment then just go back and hide," I ran off to my one safe place 'her' grave it made me calm and now I can think.

I sat there and just thought about life RUSTLE RUSTLE ,"WHO'S THERE" I glanced around and saw my mom and so called dad coming up to me they sat a distance away from me and started to talk, "I know I hurt your feelings I know that you got hurt and it hurts me that I was not there that I left you there and you could be dead and it was all my fault we both love you I love you and I understand if you don't want us in your life," Tears rolling down their faces they both got up and started to walk away, "Wait don't go," As I stood up and ran to them, "I love you too and I just wanted an apology and my mom back and I did I want you in my life both of you," Before I could respond they pulled me into a hug and I feel complete and at home I really did. That night as I snuggled against Jackson I know that I finally felt at ease for once at least everything was normal. As the demon and angel inside my head played tug of war I know what I wanted to be I was finally happy nothing could go wrong

Could it?