Abused love

A ghost of my past

I assumed the guilt would have washed over in the morning but I felt hollow but relieved at the same time I got up like a summer breeze over me, 'I am finally free, free of his bullshit, free of the scars and free of the pain I dealt with for more than ten years' I paid my dues now it was time for him to pay his I woke up to a day full of excitement and joy I have never been so happy in my life but what can I say I never really experienced happiness for a long period of time. Dancing down the stairs singing the sweetest song I did not even know I can sing but I was sure it was not really sounding all that good but I tried. "There is my princess," Jackson swerves over and plants a delicate kiss upon my cheek before pulling me close and kissing me again instead it was passionate this time but filled with aguish like something was wrong but he couldn't believe it was wrong. He pulled away from me still a smile on his handsome face I had to ask even if it was nothing, "Babe is something wrong?" he let his eyes meet mine and a worried look settled making me worry as well the air was tense you could have cut it with a knife it still would not be enough to make it through, "Sorry princess but I was wondering if you and Mathew were getting along and I have this feeling you guys are more than hanging out I saw him last night go into your room and maybe he got out later I didn't go to the gym with him to ask but," as his face drops but I knew what he was going too ask, " Did you guys sleep together," My heart dropped to my stomach I couldn't tell him especially since we did it last night so at the last minute, "NO!" Ii blurted out but I had to compose myself ,"Babe he came last night to talk about the trial and if I was comfortable talking about what he did to me so I told him everything and did not hold back and then he said since we were already up why not play cards I said yes because I never did that before so I wanted to try it and that is what we did I am sure he will tell you that when he comes back," As I kissed him gently on the lips before heading out to find Mathew and let him on this lie and that he was onto us ,"I will see you later ok babe and dinner and movie tonight right at eight ok my love," As I pecked him and ran out the door before he could even answer.

I ran out and dialed Mathew hoping he would pick up, "Hey kitten whatsup I just finished at the gym gonna head out ill be home in a sec what hap,"

"SHUT UP FOR ONE SEC," I screamed through the phone cutting him off ,"Come on kitten talk to me,"

"Right," I calmed down , "Can we meet up at the coffee place near to your gym," I begged ,"Sure I am already outside ill order for you ok kitten see you there," As he hangs up leaving my adrenaline to get the best of me in the next ten minutes. I ran up to see Mathew in front of the place sitting outside at a table with our drinks already. I walked up and sat down across from him shaking fear and anxiety taking over me, being paralyzed as I try to open my mouth but really nothing comes out, "Ok Mathew we have a problem," He looked at me carefully still confused, "Jackson saw you go into my room last night but I handled it but now you have to follow my lie that you came to talk to me about the trial and after we stayed up playing cards until I fell asleep and you left right after that," confusion but understanding swept his face but he still smiled that smile that makes me weak at my knees, "Oh kitten," He laughed but turned to look at me his eyes were mesmerizing by the hour making me really want him, "Yes I will play along for my kitten is that what you like my precious gem," His whispers sent shivers down my back but I composed myself, "Well we should get home," I stood up and walked off with Mathew close behind me.

We arrived back at the house in due time I started to make my way upstairs ,"Hey Mathew you're back can we talk brother," I watched from the balcony as I could sense that Mathew was maybe nervous about this, "Oh right about what brother," Jackson tenses up but still surpressed a smile, "I saw you go into Bella's room last night why?" Mathew did not seem hassled by the news, "Yes I did I wanted to know the real story about what happened her mother everything then after we played cards she is a shark if you tell me for a beginner you would not think then she fell asleep so I took that as my cue to leave and so I did," As Mathew pats Jackson on his back and starts to head upstairs facing me and winks making me tremble DING DONG DING DONG as the doorbell rings ever so loud making everyone come downstairs Jackson's parents and all, "I will get it," I said but as I opened the door my jaw dropped I couldn't speak I was speechless everyone else gathered around to see maybe It was a ghost from my very past or a miracle at best we all stepped aside frightfully to welcome the one person who has a lot of explaining to do. My mom