HIM ♕ Jason McCann

Chapter Eighteen

|Felicia|

I woke up in the morning, the sun rays welcoming me, monotonously. Although, my parents had thought I was at Lea's yesterday, they didn't forgive me for the fact that I have arrived at my house late. At least a few hours late. And a couple of restrictions have been imposed on me as well, for a few days. Well, let's use the more common word. I have been grounded.

Grounded.

I have never been grounded in my entire sixteen years of life. Not even once. Either way, it was a relief to know that they didn't find out about Jason. If they did, I wouldn't have been able to digest the fact that I will never be able to see him. I felt like Jason was a bad influence in me. It was as if I was becoming a slave for his bad actions. No matter how much I tried to repel myself from them, I could never. And I don't want to, too. 

The journey to school was boring as usual, nothing much had happened in the bus, nor at home. My parents were quiet during breakfast and nothing much had been said. I was glad, though. It's better staying that way rather than getting a couple of angry words escaping my parents' mouths. A few minutes later into the journey, I let my thoughts cloud over my head. My thoughts found their way back to yesterday's events of me and Jason. The car ride. It was something I had never experienced before. It was something that I will never forget, especially because it was with someone special. The adrenaline rush and the thrill made me feel emotions I haven't felt. A few minutes passed by and I had reached school. As soon as I stepped inside the doors, I was met with a pair of blue eyes which belonged to Lea. Taken by surprise, I stumbled backwards for a second. "Hey, Lea." I greeted her, smiling.

"We need to talk."

I furrow my eyebrows in confusion and just nod slowly. Why does she want to talk all of a sudden? Did she get to know that I lied about staying at her place? I felt my face go pale all of a sudden at the questions I'd asked myself. All I needed to do was relax. But, what if the talk was about Jason? That question stopped me from thinking about something else. I got excited yet, nervous at that little thought. I was also a bit scared that this talk might reveal secrets about Jason which I wasn't looking forward to know about. Lea led us to the back of the class, as I felt the whole class's stare. I furrowed my eyebrows for the second time today as to why everyone was looking at me. I don't usually get any looks. I shook away their stares and just followed Lea until we found a seat.

"He is Jason. Jason McCann. He is dangerous, Felicia." Lea whispered as soon we seated ourselves. I turned my head towards her to look at her eyes only to find the same bit of terror I saw in them the other day, when she came to my house. I fiddled with my fingers, going along with my usual habit to cover up my nervousness. "What do you mean?" I ask, curiosity and fear taking over me.

"I mean that he has done things in the past, Felicia. He has done things which shouldn't even be talked about." She replied, her voice becoming more terrified by each second. At this point, fear has certainly taken more of a part then curiosity in me. What had Jason done this bad that people are warning me? "How do you even know him, Lea?" I question her. "He used to go to our school before, he was a senior when I was a freshman. At that time, he was known to be the popular kid and the bad boy type. He was known for his bad actions, but we didn't know they were that bad. You don't even want to know, some things are really better left unsaid, Felicia." I shiver at her words. I have known Jason was the bad boy type, but I had never thought that his actions would cross the line.

A line which I will never be able to cross.

My mind wanders to people staring at me, and right now, at us. "Why are they staring at us?" I ask her, slightly annoyed by the stares, especially when I'm having an important conversation. "They know." My eyes widen at her words. They know. They know that I know Jason. I sit stiff and I suddenly feel threatened. "It's alright, they are as scared of him as I am." Scared? Why are they scared? What is going on? She bids a goodbye in between before going to her respected class, while I was in mine, puzzled about all the new things that I have learnt about him.

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I walk out of the school with Lea beside me. I was not at all able to focus in class due to the new things I have learnt about today. I was really unsure of what to do, especially since that I knew Jason. Lea and me continue to talk and walk when I heard a rather loud horn, from a distance. We both turn our heads up only to see that it was Jason waiting for, probably me, in his car. I tilt my head towards Lea, to see her whole body language changing. Her eyes had suddenly started to scream fear. She mumbled a small, "I gotta go," Leaving me there to go with Jason. I will have to ask Jason questions, today. I need answers. And this time, the answers are the only way I can get to know more about him. I walk towards his car and slowly get in. I look at him to find that he jaw was clenched shut and his eyes, once again a dark color. His demeanor not like his usual, but rather dark like when he is angry. A few chills run up my spine out of slight fear.

But, should I fear him?

He hadn't even greeted me properly, today. I missed it. Even though, it had only been a day, I missed it. I badly wanted to feel his touch, but at the same time, I didn't want him to get mad. I didn't want him to get mad at me. The car journey was quiet like it usually was, but there was a different kind of vibe in the air today. It was as if everything was tensed up. The tension was so bad that it had started to eat me. Jason parked the car near my house and unlocked the door for me to get out. "Thanks for the ride." I say, smiling. But, I didn't get a reply. I step out of the car and look at him, to find him still in the same mood he was a while back. I lean over to the window and ask him, "Would you like to come in?"

"No."

I mentally slap myself at why I had asked him that when I knew I had been grounded. I feel happy yet, a sense of sadness, too. Why did he reject my offer? I feel the engine start and he mumbles a small, "Bye," before speeding off.

Well, that was one interesting encounter.