i need you || choni/madnessa

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madelaine

if vanessa doesn't want to tell me what's wrong with her, then fine. i'm not gonna pry but i will find out what's wrong with her . it's about 11:30 and we're getting ready to go to sleep . vanessa doesn't want me to sleep with her so i'm going to sleep in the guest room . she knows i hate that but whatever .

"hey vanessa i'll be in the upstairs guest room if you need anything." i said sadly. it's like we're leaving each other .

"oh okay." she stayed downstairs scrolling on her phone, and typing frantically .

i went upstairs and got in the shower . cleansing myself and clearing my mind . i just am so grateful of everything , my fans , friends, family , my boyfriend travis . just everything .

i get out the shower, put my robe on and i peaked over the the railing to see what vanessa was doing downstairs . she was fast asleep . i walked downs stairs and when i got to the couch , she looks so peaceful . i admired her . she was so pretty . her pink / purple hair , her light brown skin tone , and her fit , small body frame all fit together so perfectly . wow my best friend is popping .

quickly snapping out of my thoughts i heard vanessa's phone drop out of her hand . she's out stone cold . i picked up her phone and unlocked it . i was always on her phone but one thing i wasn't allowed to go in was her notes . so of course i go in them .

i stumbled upon one that really caught my eye from its title :

juliet and juliet

now if you guys don't know what romeo and juliet then you probably won't get it but it's indicating that instead of having a boyfriend which would be romeo , it's a girl she's in love with that would be juliet which is the other girl and she's the other juliet . i wonder who it is, she's never told me anything . i tapped on it, and started reading.

i don't know what this feeling is
but i don't want it to go away .
it's what i crave .
her brown eyes, taunting and tempting,
are the pure symbol of rich seduction.

i want her .
to know what kissing her is like .
without the cameras and the action .
without the acting .
just me and her.
no travis.

for gods sake why can't they break up?
i don't get it.
what about him is better than me?
i just wish i could talk to her
but it's so hard for me .

i love you madelaine .
one day i'll tell you this.
but i've felt like this about you way too long.
i'm crazy for and about you.
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wow i'm speechless . i wish she would've told me before i got with travis . i would've picked her over him any day . i can't believe she hasn't told me any of this but i get it . i haven't told her everything either .

i swipe the app away so she won't know that i was in it and i pick her up and carry to our room . i gently lay her down and cover her up with a quilt . i put her phone on the charger and i'm in my way out until vanessa speaks up.

"hey madelaine, i know you went though my notes. i wasn't asleep. i dropped my phone and wrote that right before you came out of the shower on purpose . i couldn't stand not talking to you about it so that was my way of telling you how i felt." she explained

"it's okay. i get it. i'm sorry i went through your notes though . i know they're private and i know you trusted me not to go in them." i apologized sincerely . i can't believe she wasn't asleep though . good actress .

"it's fine. all of them are about you anyway. it's pretty embarrassing."

"well if you would've spoken up i would've picked you over travis . he isn't be greatest looking guy you know." i said while sitting on the edge of the bed .

"oh yeah i know . everyone that has eyes knows babe." she chuckled

"lol but umm hey can we finish up this conversation tomorrow because i'm kind of tired ." i said getting up and walking up to the door, vanessa shoots me a sad look and reaches for me like a little baby .

"sure and ....... hug?" she asks with those big , beautiful , puppy dog eyes .

i walk over to her and i gave her the biggest , warmest , bear hug ever . i want her to know that i love her no matter what .

"you can have your spot back on the bed if you want. i was being selfish and i'm sorry." she apologized

"thanks . otherwise if was going to be a long, cold, boring night if i didn't have my spot in that bed." i said cuddling up beside her . we had a comfortable silence , smiling and just enjoying each other's loving presence again. "hey, nessa, i love you so so much." i said

"i love you too mads . goodnight ." and with that she turned over, and went to bed her light snores filling the air, and me falling asleep right beside her with that music to my ears .

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didn't update in two days because i have exams 😭 i'll make it up to you guys .