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Sure I've done it before, but it was different than other times. For the first time it felt emotional, and the word 'Making love' fitted it.
But this wasn't just what I was feeling, Jungkook also felt the same thing. When it came to spending the night with Mia, it didn't feel emotional and out of love, it was just to fill himself and her with pleasure.
After we both became tired and cuddled as our arms wrapped around each other's naked bodies, I couldn't help but love hearing his chest rise up and then slowly falling down as he was breathing. It was something that I could enjoy for a while.. that was till I remembered he wouldn't be around for much time.
"Don't leave me.." I mumbled while stuffing my cheek on his chest, feeling his soft skin touch mine. He slightly smiled to himself, loving the fact I wanted him. "I won't~"
I let go of him suddenly, breaking the cuddle, causing him to move just slightly back in shock at my reaction.
"But you are." I sighed.
He dropped his head down and bit his lip, knowing what I said was true.
"How long?" I asked. In the inside my heart was beating fast.
"Two years more?"
He shook his head.
"One year?"
He shook once again.
"Oh for Goodness sake.. please don't tell me six months?"
He looked away from me, afraid to tell me the truth, because it was in fact even less than six months.
He swallowed. "About.. one month."
"Oh God.. Please tell me this is all a bad nightmare and I'll wake up to find you perfectly okay.."
"I wish it were like that (Y/N) but sadly I cant do anything about it... excuse me I'll be back right back." He says as he pecks me on the forehead before putting on his boxers and visiting the restroom.
I could help but break down in tears again, knowing after a month he wouldn't be here in my arms again, knowing there was no chance of a future with him, and that he would be gone once again.. but this time for real.
As Jungkook finally opened the door and looked at me, he caught me wiping my tears and sniffing.
"I know you can't handle it.. but maybe one day you'll accept that I'm gone and it will be all over."
I look at him in disbelief. "What? N-No! I can't. After I thought you died, for the whole year I would think about you! Everyday! And there wasn't one day I could forget you! Do you understand me Jungkook? I CAN'T FORGET YOU!" I raised my voice.
He went back in the covers and pulled my hands gently towards him, signaling for me to move closer to him, and so I did.
"What if.. What if I end it when you're gone?" I ask him.
He immediately opened his eyes wide open and looked at me in shock. "Tell me I just didn't hear what you just said?!"
"I'm serious Jungkook, I don't think I can live without you. I don't think I can love another man.. "
"My love, I understand you're upset about this.. situation, but I can't allow this to happen. Life is precious and my last wish is for you to be healthy and happy. Please promise me you will never even think about that?" He said.
"But I-"
"I said promise me. You wouldn't want to disobey me, right?"
He was right, I couldn't refuse his dying wish. It would haunt me to do something against him and I realized I went too far. It's just that I don't think I'll ever be okay again.
"Alright, I promise." I say to him.
He kisses me once more before finally breaking it and smiling softly. "That's my girl."
-
Before I knew about him being alive, my wish was to be happy again. Oh how I prayed to be happy again, how I prayed I wanted to smile for real and not a forced one so no one will ask me why I was down.
But I got my wish, I was in fact happy again, A miracle came and the one who I loved came back.
But I never wished for how long I should be happy for. I guess this is what the quote "be careful what you wish for" defined.
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I never thought I would come back to the place where horrific things I witnessed that happened to Jungkook. But I was so desperate, desperate that would be some sort of possibility for Jungkook to live. I would even take the possibility of zero point one percent just to come back here.
"Name please." A woman asked me while she reading something.
"Um.. (Y/F/N)..." I said while fiddling with my fingers, feeling nervous even though I knew nothing bad would happen.
The woman shot her head up in surprise. "Oh! (Y/N) it's lovely to see you again! What may I be of assistance?" She asks with a smile.
"I would like to visit a certain patient. Am I able to?" I ask.
The woman nodded. "Of course, just keep it quick alright? Visiting hours are almost closing! Which patient?" She asked.
"Well.. Mia."
"Mia? Are you sure about that? What seems to be the purpose of meeting her?"
"I just wanted to see how she was, see if she's learnt her lesson or not!"
"Alright then, Let me just tell the guards to bring her to the visiting room, But please try not to make her throw a tantrum, she can be quite noisy," the woman pointed out.
"Of course! I never meant to harm her, I just wanted to have a safe conversation!"
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After waiting in the visiting room for a few minutes, I heard the door opening to reveal a man and him holding someone's arm in case anything would happen.
Mia looked to see who in the world would want to visit her, but she probably guessed it was her father.
But to her surprise, it was someone she would least expect to see again.
Tbc --------------- This chapter was too long so I made it into two parts, The next part is almost done! I'll post it in probably one or two hours :)
