This Is Me

Chapter 2 "Getting Too Lost Into Studying"

~Kitty's POV~

After being at college for a couple of weeks, I settled in better than before. I knew where to go and where my classes would be. I still didn't like to talk to anyone, I was more into putting my head down and getting my work done.

People would come up to me during lunch and ask if I wanted to go and sit with them but I refused every time. Trying to get my work done as much as possible so I didn't have a whole load to do at home, I focused more on my art work. I did more art than the requirement so if I liked it, I could add it to my art book and if they see I did more work, I would get a higher grade at the end.

A few weeks more into college, I went into class and started on my first project. I started to make friends with some of the girls and socialise but I wanted to stay focused on my work at the same time so I tried to balance friends and work.

"Kitty, do you want to go get some food?" My friend Kim asked while she was packing up her things.

"No I'm fine thanks, I need to get my work done" she looked at me concerned.

"How much have you even eaten today Kitty? And don't think about lying to me, I know you long enough to know that you aren't eating properly" she said as I looked at her and then looked down at my feet.

"I haven't eaten n-nothing" I said holding my head in my hands as she packed my things away and made me go with her.

"Come with me Kitty" she told me softly.

We went to the cafe in college and she had to buy me food because I didn't have the money to buy it myself. I told her that I didn't need it and that I was OK but she refused to listen to me and wouldn't take no for an answer.

"Thank you" I said, smiling at her.

"It's OK just making sure you eat more and no cutting meals off" she scolded me lightly and smiled. I laughed and hugged her close to me as she hugged me back.

Her friend Jake came up to us as I sat back, eating my food. Kim gave me a look as if to ask if I was okay and I assured her it was nothing with a small nod.

"I'm going to go back up and get ready for lesson" I said while hugging Kim as Jake said goodbye which I replied with a small smile.

I walked out the cafe and went back to the room I was in before Kim dragged me to the cafe and grabbed the rest of my things and headed to my fine art lesson. I got everything ready that I was told to get.

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"OK class, today you will be drawing the objects that are in front of you so go and get your pencils out and get started. You all have one hour to get it done, off you go" the teacher instructed.

I grabbed my A3 paper and started to draw.

I looked up and saw Jake sitting on the other side of the room. He smiled at me and I let a little smile out before I started concentrating on my drawing so that I didn't lose time.

Once everyone was done, they showed their piece of work and everyone talked about each other's work. Some people commented on my drawing saying how they like it but in my head I didn't like it at all so I just put it in my draw and left it there.

Lessons passed and it was the end of the day. I headed over to the bus stop with my friend and was surprised to see Jake there.

Kim's bus came and I was going to just go but she just gave me a look telling me to stay and talk to him and I knew that was never going to happen so I just leaned against the wall and looked up at the sky.

"Nice, right?" He said as I looked at him smiling up at the sky.

"Yeah..." I said quietly and looked back up at the sky, watching the clouds go past so slowly. They looked funny so I let out a small giggle.

Jake looked at me weirdly as I laughed so I said, "one of the cloud looks like you" as I smiled to myself.

In my view I saw someone stand in front of me and I looked to see Jake, looking right at me closely.

"I like you a lot" he said as he looked deep into my eyes. I don't know if he could tell if I liked him too.

Just when he started to lean closer, I got scared and pushed him away from me and ran all the way home not thinking about what I was doing. I went into my house and acted as if nothing had happened.

I told Dad to make me a cup of tea and I brought it upstairs to my room. I switched my laptop on and started to talk to Kim on Facebook.

Kim: 'Sooo, how did it go?"

I closed my eyes and made sure not to cry. I was stronger than that. I quickly replied.

Kitty: 'I'm so going to get you tomorrow, I hate you. He tried to kiss me and all I did was push him away and run'

I slammed my laptop lid down hard and placed it on the floor. I put my tea to the side, not wanting to leave the room. I pulled the covers around me to keep warm as it got colder outside every day.

I got up and headed over to my window, looking as all the stars are out. I smiled knowing my grandma was up there watching me as I get older and I know she will always be there for me and ended up falling asleep on my windowsill.

"KITTY! GET UP, COLLEGE IN 30 MINUTES!"

"OK Mum, be right down" I yelled back as I dragged myself out of bed and ran around, trying to put anything on. I ended up wearing a low cut tank top and my baggy jeans that I always loved to wear. I grabbed some toast from Dad.

"I'm going to walk today Mum, I think it will be good" I said hugging Mum.

"OK sweetie but if something happens, ring me up"

"Will do Mum" I said as I walked out the house ready to start a new day. I'm going to try and start all over again with Jake. I was hoping we could still talk abet. I hope Kim doesn't hit him, she's really good at it when she's really mad at people.

I walked into college and this is the start of a new day.