My name is Andy.
I'm in a band with my friends Brook, Jack, Mikey and Rye and I have two huge secrets.
The first secret is that I think I'm in love with Rye. He is the sweetest and the most handsome person in the whole world.
That's probably why he has a girlfriend. Yes, you heard me, he has a girlfriend. Her name is Caroline. I don't like her, I know she's cheating on him.
I tried to tell Rye about it, but he didn't believe me. After that she has always been mean to me when none of the other boys are around. I don't dare tell any of the boys about it.
The other secret is that I suffer from anxiety and depression. I visit a therapist weekly. I haven't told any of the boys yet. I don't want to be a burden and have them worrying about me.
Lately my anxiety and depression have been acting up. I try to act normal, but it can be really hard sometimes.
My therapist have suggested to write my thoughts and feelings down. That's why i began to write a diary, but i wanted to dedicate it to someone.
Therefore I dedicated it to the one person that helps me without knowing it. I wrote it for Rye.
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This is my first story, so I know it might suck. Please let me know if you find any grammar mistakes. English isn't my first language, so there might be a lot.
-SweetLittleTiger
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FanficMy name's Andy and I live with my four best friends and band mates. That makes it really hard for me to hide my depression and anxiety from them. It also makes it hard for me to hide the fact that I'm in love with my straight best friend, that has a...