I'm not fine ~ Randy

Chapter 19

I'm now sitting on the couch in the living room. Connor comes in with three plates, one stacked with pancakes, and a glass of strawberry jam.

He places the plates and the jam down on the table before going back to the kitchen. He comes back with two glasses and orange juice.

He places this down too before reaching for the remote to the tv. He turns it on before plopping down in the couch next to me.

"Eat up, there is more than enough pancakes for both of us" He laughs out while he's taking some pancakes and placing them on our plates.

I look at the pancakes and feel the hunger inside my stomach. I bite at my bottom lip. The voice is right, I'm still too fat, but it's okay if I take one pancake, right?

Connor hands me the jam after he's done with it. I begin spreading it on the pancake before putting it down on the table again. I slowly fold it and put it up to my mouth.

"Are you really going to eat that?"

I hesitate before closing my eyes and taking a bite. It tastes really good and before I know it I have eaten the whole thing.

I open my eyes when I feel someone staring at me. I look to the side and see Connor intensely looking at me again. I send him a questioning look, but he just shrugs and continues eating.

I can feel my stomach longing for more, but I said I would just have one, so I'm going to stick with it. I'm probably going to have to puke if I take one more anyway.

I push the plate away from me to sign that I don't want anymore to Connor before looking at the tv. I can see Connor staring at me weirdly, but I just shrug and don't pay attention to it.

"Are my pancakes not good or anything, because I thought you were really hungry and one pancake won't make you full?" Connor says beside me.

I shift my attention to him and look into his eyes. Those eyes that seem so familiar, but I can't remember where I've seen them before.

"Your pancakes are really good, I'm just not that hungry" I tell him and yet again fake him a small smile.
He gives me a wary look but seems to accept it.

"Okay, as long as you're sure" He says, giving me a small smile back before leaning forward, grabbing the orange juice.

He fulls up a glass and holds it out for me, but I shake my head so he shrugs again and takes a sip of it. He places it down again after and leans back, scooting towards me and throwing an arm on top of the couch behind me.

He turns his body towards me and I look at him carefully, not knowing if I really want him this close to me. He places his free hand on my thigh and I feel myself tense under his touch. 

"So cupcake, tell me about yourself" He says looking deeply into my eyes.
I gulp and move a little uncomfortable.

"Uhm, what do you want to know?" I ask him, glancing down at his hand on my thigh.
"Like, do you have a boyfriend?" He asks, moving his hand a little bit higher on my thigh.

I shift uncomfortably again and gulp. This is making me really anxious and I can feel my heart beating loudly in my chest.

"I'm not gay" I tell him, but my voice comes out shaky.
He's about to reply when the doorbell rings. He groans and stands up and I give out a relieved sigh.

He walks to the front door and I curiously look after him. I can hear him open the door and then hear a familiar voice.

I immediately tense up, praying that I'm just imagining this. My hopes are ruined when a familiar person steps into the living room, a slight smirk playing on her lips and with the same green eyes as Connor.

There, in all her glory, stands Caroline with an evil glint in her eyes.

"Hey Andy, hope you have gotten comfortable with Connor, because you and him are going to help me get my Ryan back" She smirks down at me while I gulp, looking up at her with fear in my eyes.