Secrets•lil Pump

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*Szas POV*

I stood in the shower, the hot water trickling on my body. My soul numb. My motivation non existent. "Sza get the fuck out of the shower you been in that bitch for an hour" Gazzys yelling made me realise I was just daydreaming. I just wanted to sleep...forever. I wanted to die. I grabbed the conditioner and massaged my head quite a bit. As the soap washed out I watched the suds hit the tiles and fade away. I wish that was me. The suds made it look so fucking easy. They just died away without mattering to anyone. 

"Sza i said get the fuck out of the god damn shower before I come in there and take you out myself" I quickly washed my body with the apricot scrub and turned the water off. My mascara was probably still running down my face but oh well. I held back my tears, Gazzy would probably smack me on top of the head if he saw me like this. I wiped my face with a makeup towel and wrapped my hair in a towel before walking out into the hallway and into my room. Gazzy was listening to his music and I wasnt really in the mood for this shit. 

"Hey baby, can I go get chick-Fil-A?" I asked Gazzy. I wasn't stupid enough to pull any shit this time. I just wanted food. He threw the keys to me and surprise i caught them. 

"If you not back in 45 minutes im gonna come looking for you okay babygirl?" How could Gazzy threaten somebody so sweetly. What the actual fuck was that he just said...nevermind. He gave me enough time to go to the hospital, and drive to Jahseh.

"Okay" I ran out of the room and down all of the stairs to get to the garage. I turned on the engine to my old car that I had left behind the day I ran to jahsehs house. I pulled out of the driveway and began speeding because fuck the laws when you LIl Pumps wife bitch. I drove all the way to jahs house and opened the door with the key I still had. He was playing fortnite. Classic jahseh.

"Sza, the fuck happened out there?!!" 

"Jahseh I dont have time to explain all of the crazy shit going on with my life right now okay? Just fucking hug me and tell me it'll be okay because I need it!!" Jahseh nodded and got up from the couch pulling me into a big hug. He even left the game in the middle of a match, wow. I stood there hugging Jah. His hugs made me feel safe. They made me feel important. I love jahseh so much. He's always there when I need him. He doesn't need anybody else to help him. He got it all figured out. I am proud of him for that. 

"Jahseh, What do i do? Im stuck" 

"Sza, imma get you out of this. Give me some time and it'll all work out okay? Can you come see me on saturday?" 

I shook my head yes and let go. I kissed jahsehs hand for a thankyou and left his house in silence. I hopped in the car and checked the time. 30 minutes left. I stepped on the gas and backed out. To the hospital I go. I picked up the spare phone Jah gave me and I dialed Skylars number once more. The ring tone went through a few times and I balled my eyes out when skylar picked up.

Skylar: hello?

Sza: Sky-Skylar?

Skylar: sza? is that you??

Sza: y-yeah its me...i d-dont know what to d-do

Skylar: Jordans in the hospital. He keeps asking for you and I think you should come see him. 

Sza: w-wait i tho-thought he hated me?

Skylar: No. We never will. We both still love you.

Sza: Whats his room im outside the hospital?

Skylar: floor 4. ICU room 432

I ran into the hospital, they knew me pretty well by now. I went up the back elevator and ran into that room. Skylar stood up as soon as he saw me and jordaned picked his head up.

"Sza baby?" Jordan said with a raspy but soothing voice. I ran to him and caressed his face in my hands. I kissed him on the lips, I missed his perfectly soft lips. 

I pulled away his face still in my hands. A few tears dripped down my face. Skylar tapped my shoulder and I turned around to hug him. He smiled with his cheesy ass grin that always made me laugh.

"I dont have much time you two. But skylar can you meet me at jahsehs house on saturday morning?"

Skylar nodded and I kissed jordans head softly. 

"Okay, I gotta go. See you then"

I ran out of the hospital and got back into the car. I hid the spare phone in my bra and started to drive back to my house...for now.