Secrets•lil Pump

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*later that night*
*szas pov*

I was quickly stuffing my bags with anything I would need to live off of. Clothes, makeup, shoes, etc. I teared up but wiped it away to keep myself strong. I unlocked my phone so that I could text Jansen.

Me: Jah can I stay for a couple months?

Jahseh: of course sizzle. Buh what about gazzy?

Me: I have  it worked out. I'll be there in an hour or sumn

Jahseh: ok for sure

I finished up packing by bags and was on my way to head out the door. I was stopped by a figure at the bottom of the stairs. Gazzy had just gotten back from the studio with dex and Diego again. I clenched my jaw keeping my mind straight. I had to leave.

"Baby, where are you going? Is there a sleepover at your friend  I didn't know about?" Gazzy asked me laughing. I felt terrible for what I was going to be telling him.

"Gazzy, I'm leaving for a while. I need some time right now. I'll only be leaving until I can get my mind straight. I'll be with some family." I tried  my beat to keel the situation under control but I knew fuzzy wasn't taking this very well. I wanted to drop my advancing him so bad, but I knew that I couldn't give up on my mental health. This was the best choice I could make.

Gazzy dropped to his knees and started to cry vigorously. "Baby girl please...please...please...stay with me. I can't do this without you. We've lost so much, an  I'm not going to make responsible decisions with you gone. I need you. I'm nothing like the real me without you. I'll die craving your love!!"

"G-gazzy, I can't do this. I...we need a break. I love you to death, but everything I  just going wrong right now. I think I should work on my album, and you should get your mind straight about our baby. Go to a few therapy sessions and when we see  each other next time...I-I don't know. It's a mystery. Life's a mystery. I love you!" I said basically drowning in tears by now. I had dropped my bags down the stairs in th  process but I didn't care. I slowly walked down the stairs to meet gazzy eye to eye.

I hugged Gazzy tightly. I was holding on to him with my life. "I'm so sorry daddy" I had whispered into his ear. I let my grip go and picked up my bags now walking out to the driveway where I'd get in my car.

Gassy had  followed me out as I expected he would. I would have done it too. A  I opened my car door he tapped me  on the shoulder. I threw my bags into the car and turned around to him.

"Can I have  on last kiss?" Jazzy asked me getting close to my face. I pressed my nose against gazzys and nodded. I pressed my lips against his soft lips, and have him on last kiss for a long time.

"I'll have  my shit together when you get back, I promise baby girl!" Gazzy said to me as I got in the car and started the  engine.

"I trust you" I said as I waved a final goodbye. Now driving to jahsehs house I blared music all the way. Once I got there he let  me in and I went straight to the spare room I had stayed in when the whole Jordan situation went down. After organizing the room for a bit, Jahseh walked in.

"Hey siz, so are you good?"

"Just need to get my mind straight" I sighed   heavily laying Down on the bed.

"How long will you be staying? Not being rude or anything, just asking if that's ok?"

"I'm not sure any more. All I know is, time will tell."

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Sorry for any mistakes I'm typing this on a tablet rn and I don't usually use a tablet so I'm screwing up lmaoo. Anyways guys there will be 3 chapters out from Monday-Saturday so be ready for those. And I'm going on a trip for 5 days to the mountains so I won't be able to publish anything while I'm there. So basically Monday morning (4-30-18) at 6:45 am (mountain standard) I will be releasing 4 chapters all at once for you to read. Just a heads up. Ily guys.
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