Secrets•lil Pump

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*Szas POV*

I waited there for skylars answer. I anxiously shook into bits and pieces all for him to not answer. I dont know why. What happened last time we seen each other wasnt my fault. It was not. It couldn't be. NO.

Whether it was my fault or not, though, I'm going to fix this. And that means I have to get out of this marriage. And nothing is going to stop me. Well maybe except for all of the lies and secrets.

I backed out of the driveway as fast as possible and sped down the street. I had to go see on of my most trusted friends. Not nahm though. He was brainwashed my Gazzy. Now they're bestfriends. If I go to him i'll probably be chained by the neck and never aloud outside. As I stopped at the red light in anger I banged my head onto the very top of the steering wheel and i screamed. Because I realised there was nothing that I could do. Gazzy was going to come looking. He'd eventually find me. And i'd be screwed. And it wasn't even just that. It was that around Gazzy i've never felt anything. Maybe a little sensation in my body when we first met and had thrills. But anymore it just makes me cry, because I realised i've left when I had everything. And maybe im a year and 3 months too late to be talking, but I should've known since that night in jamaica.

And no matter how much i try Gazzy will never show me love. The love I want. All I am to him was an achievement. A step up in the fame department. To be honest with myslef I probably would have killed myself if it wasn't for what I'd be doing next. Everything I've done already has lead up to this moment. And i've been standing right at my grave. And now im 2 legs and a arm deep. One last chance.

And i'll probably die from it. But it's too late now.