Love Thy Sister (Lesbian Story)

Love Thy Sister (lesbian Story): Chapter 12

Abbey 10:09am

Dear Journal,

You know that whole neglecting thing you go through when you’re in the honeymoon phase with someone? Well that shit is totally true. I woke up this morning at 7:30am forgetting that it was a school day and that school started at 7:20am. I jumped up, shook Crystal awake and we both darted out the door. We didn’t get to school until like 8:20. I know it might not seem like a big deal, but it’s a big deal to Crystal and I. Even though our parents are never around, they always keep up on our grades and attendance. Like I said they adopted us to set an example for society. Aren’t they stupid? Well anyway if they find out we were late (which they will) they’ll completely freak out.

                Speaking of parents, I have a feeling they’ll do one of their famous drop-ins soon. I hate when they do that. I mean they don’t talk to us for weeks at a time, then suddenly pop up like they own everything. It frustrates the hell out of me. For some reason its just always felt like Crystal and I owned the house and that mom and dad were just those distant relatives who came over every once in a while and ruined everything. I always pray that one day they’ll just never come back. Mom and Dad are both disgusting and pathetic excuses for human beings. But they don’t show it to the public. They only show it to their other rich snooty disgusting friends.

                My mom’s idea of what a lady should be is completely warped. Asking her for advice on boys was always hell. She would preach that women should marry for money and success not love because love doesn’t exist. She always started me off young too. When I was 5 she entered me in this pageant where she dressed me in this expensive dress and did my makeup and hair. I hated doing that. Especially because old creepy men would watch me while I was on stage. I still have nightmares about that.

                I also remember when I tried to tell her about the incident. You would think a parent would want to listen when you confess to them that someone hurt you in the way I was hurt. I tried, but my mom just didn’t want to listen. She just cut me off and blamed me for not going along with it. How do you blame a child for not going along with something as sick and twisted as what he tried to do to me? I still cry at night whenever I think about it. I never told Crystal, but I know she knows what happened. Crystal knows everything.

                Speaking of Crystal, she is getting more and more peculiar every day, but in a good way. She’s been texting her new friend Savanna a lot. Call me nosey and untrustworthy, but I went through her phone to see just exactly what they were talking about. It’s like what they were talking about was in a foreign language. It had all these big words and all these names that I had never heard of before. It’s like nerd talk to the max. I love art and literature, but I don’t know how someone can be moved by it that much.

The fact that they have so much in common still freaks me out, but I want Crystal to have friends. Crystal said that Savanna wants to meet me, but I kind of don’t want to meet Savanna to be honest. I mean the way Crystal talks about her makes it seem like she’s a damn genius or something.  I’m always intimidated by those who have more intelligence than I do. I know I’m smart, but I’m not smart in that kind of way. I still don’t know what I want to do with my life, it’s like I’m vapid or something. I love art, but I’m kind of mediocre at it. I really like to do makeup though. On Halloween I’m the woman you wanna see for your makeup. I just don’t know. I mean I’m only 14, I have years upon years to figure out what I want to do with my life.

                The only person that I know who seems to have everything mapped out is Matt. I swear that kid is set for life. Since his parents are like big business people or whatever they actually were able to get 2 books of his published. I’ve yet to read them, but I know a lot of girls at school have his books. They say their amazing, but it’s more for guys so I doubt their telling the truth. He already has scholarships lined up and so many colleges want him already. That boy is going to have way more money than he needs. I mean his parents already have money on top of money, isn’t that enough?