Moan {HIATUS}

Becky G (14)

Prepare yourself...

Sasha~

I am surprising Zayn with food, and I know he is at a meeting, so I will let myself in. We haven't been able to hang out lately, because he has had a lot of meetings, and I am recording. It's just a big mess, but we finally are going to have time to hang out.

I am so glad I have Zayn in my life. He is nice, and so funny. It's the best.

I put the food on Zayn's kitchen counter and I hear a soft humming. What?

"Zayn?" I call out. No response. I walk towards his bedroom.

He isn't in there but the closet door is open. I really want to know what's in there. I walk towards it.

The door is open just a crack so I push it open further. Inside the closet, lining the side walls, are shelves. The shelves all have, what look like, dvd cases. I walk around the wall, tracing all the dvd cases, looking, searching for titles.

It's weird none of them have titles and certain sections are different colors. One red, one blue, one green, and a purple one. The red and blue section are on the left side when you come in, and the green and purple are on the right. There is a small plasma on the far wall. I go to the red section and pull out one of the cases. It reads, 'Betsy Gray'. I think she is an American actress, I could be wrong. I pull out another, 'Cynthia Reynolds'. She is one of my favorite America artists. I pull out a few more, 'Violet Hamilton', 'Lisa Sutherland', 'Kelly Johnston' they are all famous women. Documentaries? Why does Zayn have all of these. I am so confused.

Why does he have these? What is with the colors? What's with the female artists? What is on these dvds? When did he make these? Did he make these? Did someone else make these? Millions of questions race through my head, none of them connecting, but all of them together. They ask everything, but basically the same question over and over. What are these dvds? What are these dvds? What are these dvds?

"Sasha!" Zayn's voice startles me so much that I drop the cases. They clatter to the floor noisily.

"Z-Zayn!" I reply.

"What are you doing in here?" He asks. He has headphones around his neck (connected to what I assume is his phone), and more cases, they are purple, in his hands.

"I was curious." I say slowly.

"Get out." He says calmly. He puts the purple cases in the purple section and turns back to me.

"What are these?" I gesture around the room.

"They are just m-movies. Yea, movies." He stutters.

"Oh? Then let's watch one." I turn back to the red section and pull out a random case, "Oh! Cher Lloyd! This one has to be good." I wave it around.

"No!" He lunges forward and snatches it out of my hand.

"What are these?"

"Nothing!"

"Lies!"

"They-it's not important!"

"Yes it is! I will just watch one myself!"

"No! You can't!"

"Watch me!"

"Seriously! Stop! You can't watch these!"

"Yes I can!"

"Please Sasha."

"Zayn," I say, suddenly calm,"do you remember that conversation that we had on our first date?"

"I don't know what you are talking about."

"We said we would never lie to each other. You are lying to me." I say.

"Ok, listen. They are v-videos." He stutters.

"Of?"

"M-Me, a-and women." His gaze is now intensely locked on the floor.

"What is going on in these videos?"

"Just watch one." His voice is broken.

I pull one from the shelves. One of the blue ones.

"No!" Zayn yells,"A red one, only a red one." I shrug and put the blue one back. I grab a red one and walk to the tv.

As the dvd loads up I look at Zayn.

He keeps muttering, "I'm sorry." Over and over. I look back to the tv when I hear Becky G's voice.

"Zayn!" She squeals. She is standing in some bedroom, looks like a hotel room, Zayn in front of her. He is shirtless. She is wearing what I would expect her to wear, high waisted shorts and a crop top.

"Shh! Don't be so loud, babe." He wraps his arms around her waist. She giggles.

"Zayn, c'mon, don't be a tease." She slurs her words. He peppers her neck with kisses. The he starts to remove her top. I quickly grab the remote and turn it off.

"Zayn, is that what I think it is?"