Chess Piece [On-Hold]

Friendship

*Mature Content*

Kit's POV

"What...what do you mean by... you are coming back...?"

I tighten my grip on the phone with shaky hand. Wave of acid wells up from my belly, my heart beating rapidly like it's going to explode, beads of perspiration form on my forehead and I'm gasping for air without realising.

"....Why...? Why... you are doing this to me...?" I whisper.

"Kit, it's time for us to face it. We can't run away from it forever. There's no way for us to recover from that incident without facing it." The other person on the line say in a calming tone.

"I'm fine now! I can still eat. I can still laugh. I can still joke. I can still have sex with Forth. I'm fine! Totally fine! I have recovered from that incident." I raise my voice with disagreement of what he had said.

"No, you haven't. If you really have recovered, why are you so afraid to see me? You haven't recovered. You're just deceiving yourself, making yourself to believe that you have recovered, but no, you are not."

"I will be as long as I don't think back to that day... I...I just want to forget... Seeing you... no, even hearing your voice... is like... opening up the memory box... that I have been trying... so hard to hide... I...I don't want... to recall about... what happened on that day... Please... don't make... me remember... I beg you... please..." I beg with tears rolling down my cheeks.

"Kit, it has been a year. Denying it, ignoring it, avoiding it and running away from it are not the best solution. It will be better if we can face it and make peace with it."

"You are not me!! You don't know how I feel! I...I *sob* I... feel like... I had been *sob* cheating... on Forth. Cheating on the man I love... *sob* whenever I think back to... that day..." I shout while sobbing.

I can't stop myself from thinking back to that day. I still remember every detail of what happened on that day. I moaned lewdly like a slut while he, my best friend, was thrusting in and out of me. I feel dirty. I feel ashamed. I feel I was cheating on Forth and Forth, he...he witnessed everything...

"Kit, it wasn't your fault or mine. We had been drugged. There was no way for us to stop it or prevent it even if we wanted to."

"I know. I'm not blaming you... It's just that... my heart still couldn't accept it... It's a scar inside my heart... I just don't want... to reopen the wound. I'm not strong... enough to face it... to face you... I'm sorry... How I wish it was just a nightmare..."

"You are not the only one. Trust me, you are not. And don't apologise. *sigh* Kit... I don't want to lose our years of friendship just because of some malicious women. I treasure our friendship, a lot. I don't want to force you, but Kit, think about it. I will be there for a week. If you are ready to see me, you know where to find me or how to find me."

I hang up the phone after saying goodbye to him. I put down the phone beside me and lie down on the bed curling up in a foetal position and sob.

Forth, please come back now... I need you now... Please...

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I feel so hot as if my body is on fire and I feel someone is touching me, caressing my body, kissing every inch of my body. It must be my Forth.

"Ahhh... Forth..." I moan uncontrollably.

I moan even louder when he inserts his finger into me while sucking on my nipple. I'm getting hotter and hotter like someone has pour fuel to the fire on my body.