Chess Piece [On-Hold]

Brothers

Pha's POV

*Knock Knock Knock*

"Coming!" I call out.

Frowning, I put my laptop on the couch and walk to the door.

I don't recall meeting someone today.

Could it be that woman?

No, I don't think so. P'Sky's men will alert me before she even knocks at my door. So... couldn't be her.

Could it be P'Cho or Ming?

No... They can't be here and they knew it. That woman believed that I have fell out with them. If she caught them in here with me, the plan will fall apart. Plus, I'm pretty sure they are now enjoying their time with their beloved ones.

*Sigh*

A helplessness and self-pity sigh escaping from my mouth.

I could only be sitting here, at home, thinking about him, and going through the loneliness of not being able to see him. But no matter how unbearable the loneliness is, I will endure it as long as it will keep him safe.

Hope that P'Gemma's plan works so I can see him soon.

With this little hope in heart, I look through the peephole to see who is my visitor.

I froze, with my right hand on the doorknob.

I move my head back a little, trying to clear my mind by shaking my head, and then I look into the peephole again.

Okay, he's still there. So... I'm not hallucinating. And I'm pretty sure that I'm not dreaming.

He is here. Right here. Right now.

Okay.

What am I supposed to say to him?! What am I supposed to do right now?!

Greet him with a smile and say, "Hi, P, long time no see. How's your day?"

I would rather bang my head against the wall.

I know I'll have to face him one day, but I never thought that today is the day and I'll be doing this Alone!

I thought, when the day comes, P'Gemma will be around. Just like that time I talked to him on the phone. Not just me and him. Plus, talking on the phone is so much different from talking in person.

I... I really don't know how to face him after knowing the truth.

Even though I don't really hate him, but I had been disliking him for most of my life, blaming him for being the one who has everything when I have nothing. I tried to avoid being in the same room with him whenever I can. And I thought he hates me, he always gives me cold shoulders or treated me like I don't exist. I have been carrying these beliefs and feelings most of my life without knowing that he has been trying to protect me from his mother.

Knowing the truth after all these years... I feel ashamed of myself. For blaming him and disliking him while he is trying to protect me.

And, P'Cho, he has been with me for years. To me, he is someone I can trust and rely on. He is like a brother to me. Sometimes, I even wish that he is my elder brother. I never thought that he is my brother's best friend and he was sent to protect me by my brother.

How many secrets they have been hiding from me? How many lies they have been telling me?

I don't know. I really don't know. And I don't want to know. Just like what N'Yo said, no matter how many more secrets they have or how many lies they had said, the only thing I need to keep in mind is that they are protecting me. This is all I need to know.