i was a cringe teenager (not much has changed)

(3) i made him leave.

i'm overwhelmed.
he has been on my mind
and its been days now.
i can't think straight.
i haven't slept.
and i'm hungry.
he left.
i want him back.
he has taken the life from me.
he promised me eternity.
was it all just fake pretend?
the strings in my heart are broken.
i miss him.
his smile.
his eyes.
his hair.
his tears.
his voice.
all of him.
how he shared things with me.
how he complained when someone was rude.
how he cared.
he knew i love him.
but he went away.
he knew my fears.
and my biggest was to be alone.
yet he left me lonely.
why?
was i not enough?
did he find someone better?
am i never going to be someone's first?
did i do something?
i would've never pushed him away.
i wanted him near.
did i suffocate him?
i beg for answers.
i was at his door last night.
i tried.
but then i saw her.
she was with him.
they looked so perfect together.
so in love.
it was magical.
i was awestruck.
i wanted his happiness.
but i failed.
i was selfish.
and now he won't come back.
tell me was i wrong?
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