Hidden 8th | BTS

Stage 30

Honestly you didn't know what was worse.

Being scared that Yoongi hyung is fiercely glaring at you with an angry expression and a serious tone.

Or that you were struggling not to laugh because you were being hovered by the smallest hyung in the group that you could easily push over because of your training and the fact that his angry face is still rather cute.

You really couldn't help but let out a little giggle.

"Yah, what's so funny?" Yoongi said, making him more pissed at the reaction.

"Hyung is just so cute~" You cooed with a bright smile. Your smile went even wider when you saw Yoongi's cheeks turning red.

"Y/N, I'm serious." He said, trying to containing his embarrassment. You low-key really couldn't help but still find him cute though.

You saw Yoongi let out a sigh and got off of you. He took the blanket that he threw away and threw it once more on to you.

"Just go back to sleep." You heard him mumble as he went back to the table to continuing eating his food.

Your lips were in a firm line as you grasp the edges of the blanket in your hands. You were staring at the white messy sheet that covered your legs and couldn't help but mentally sigh.

Why are you like this?

You glanced back up at him. Yoongi wasn't even bothering with you anymore, his gaze was glued to the screen as he ate at the same time. You quietly stood back up and walked towards the dining chair.

"I still haven't finished my food." You mumbled as you sat down, your gaze never really leaving him.

He didn't response or even glanced at you. You looked down at your probably already cold food.

This is all your fault.

Because of you, everyone is worried and it is even bothering with work life.

Why did you always had to make everyone worried for you? Are you that unmanageable?

...

S-Should you.....say what's on your mind?

No.

....That...

Don't.

You were always encouraged to.....right?

What makes you think he cares?

He said to not close him out.....that means he cares right? He...he won't laugh and belittle me right?

Ha. I doubt it. Humans are liars.

But this is Yoongi hyung. Yoongi hyung wouldn't do that.

How stupid can you be? Are you going to trust other person again? Are you going to become dependent again? Are you that embarrassing? This is why Jungkook left you.

You are nothing by a hindrance.

Yoongi isn't Jungkook. He isn't the same.

He is sick of you. He said so himself. He hates you.

Yoongi doesn't hate me.

How can you be so sure?

Yoongi doesn't hate me.

Pretty pathetic optimism now, aren't we?

Yoongi doesn't hate me.

Stop lying to yourself.

No.

I'm not lying.

You are.

I'm just trying to protect you sweetheart.

".....Y/N...Y/N.."

"Y/N!"

You were snapped out of your thoughts as reality came in. You blinked from your gaze in front of the untouched food. You then looked up at Yoongi who was calling you.

You could see it in his face that he was slightly panicking and very worried.

"Y/N? What's wrong?"

You could see his pale skin covered with a thin layer of sweat. His red-ish lips hung open a bit to call your name. His eyebrows furrowed together to create little lines.

His eyes showed a tiny reflection of you, your eye colours back to normal and slightly shaking. A glint of confusion, worried, sadness and love was reflected in his eyes.

He cared.

"Do you hate me?" you bluntly asked. You needed conformation. You needed reassurance.

You honestly didn't think you could handle another blunder.

You really didn't know what was going on anymore.

Your mind was a mess.

Your heart was lost.

All you felt was pain and agony in your chest.

Yet the only conclusion you could draw from was blank. Nothing. You were somehow stuck in this loophole where everything and everyone was moving and growing around you but you just sat there, staring at space, that was how you felt, nothing.

Everything was falling apart, and still you felt nothing. 

You want to feel something. Anything. Anything but lost. 

You saw Yoongi's eyes soften, his posture went more relaxed.

"I could never hate you. I love you too much. I was just frustrated that you wouldn't talk to me, Y/N. I know how you feel, Y/N. I have been there once before, it is nothing new but it is always scary. I won't sugarcoat any of it because I know we might not have felt or faced the same situations but I get you. I know the feelings of insecurity. The fear of underachievement. The fear of being left behind. The fear of nothing being accepted. I know all of those.

It is all going to be fine. It might take time, but all is well. Trust me, I know that.

There isn't a person in the world that is born to be alone, Y/N. Remember that."

Tears dripped onto the your lap. You quickly wiped it away with your sleeves, only for more to come.

He understood. 

Was it that easy for you? Just for one person to understand you?

But for you it meant everything. 

You sniffled, "....You....never walk alone, huh?"

Yoongi chuckled and nodded, "You never walk alone."

You watched him as he slowly got up from his sit and walked towards you. You turned your chair to face him once he stood in front of you. You saw Yoongi's hand hesitantly coming upwards towards him but it looked like it had stopped just about half way mid air.

You saw him slightly biting his lips and he looked rather conflicted on his actions.

You knew what he was trying to do. But this time, you initiated.

And before you could double think, you were already up from your chair and your arms around Yoongi's skinny figure.

Yoongi was taken back from the action and was too stunt to move. But slowly, as his mind began to process on what the heck was happening, his arms had too went around Y/N's figure.

"You know it's a Spring Day tomorrow."

"Y/N that's enough." 

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Don't really feel a depth in this chapter....hmmm