3:25am
Have you ever had the feeling when youre really weak and you can barely walk? Well i have that feeling right now. I really did try to not cry and actually be happy without cutting or throwing up and all of that was just building up inside of me along with all my emotions. So tonight i finally exploded in my own kind of way. I cried until i couldnt anymore if that even makes sense. Now i am weak, the worst feeling in the world is to be weak. My legs feel as if i walked 10 miles, my head is pounding and my throat is dry. I dont know why but when i dont feel like that every two weeks i think that theres something wrong with me. Ive felt depressed for seven months now and theres nothing i can do to help that. I even told someone about my problems but that didnt help at all. The only thing it did for me was to think someone was actually listening. No matter what you do or what you mean to that person their just dying to tell you about their issues and problems. I just wish life was so much easier. I dont understand why im even in this world, my life doesnt even have a meaning honestly. I mean if i were to die yea people would miss me and cry about me being gone but in the end, what purpose did my life serve?
