2:10pm
Why?! Why do i have to feel this way? Why do i feel like i need to throw up everytime when i cry and why do i feel like i can breathe when i cry? I hate having all these feelings that i feel on a daily basis. Like when i want to cut my self but i cant cause i feel like i let people down and i feel like everyone depends on me for some reason. Its so weird because no one even pays attention to me or listen for that matter. I think people have made it obvious that I'm not wanted which makes me want to cut myself so i end up letting everyone else down because theres no point in trying anymore. I hate it when I'm so tired but i cant fall asleep so i end up sitting in my bed all night and being stuck with .... my self. So disgusting. Sometimes i get the urge to just cut off all the fat on my stomach and my thighs but i never cut my stomach cause thats a sensitive area to me. Maybe thats why i want to cut it, cause i know it'll hurt more than anything I've done to myself. I also hate it even more when i get the most random headaches and they never go away until i sleep and thats not for a long ass time.
