sent at 5:03
guys i want to die. im tired of waking up at 3 in the morning to my parents fighting. im tired of being depressed all the time. im tired of crying for hours in the middle of the night to the point where i cant cry anymore. i dont want to be like this anymore. i dont want to live a sad life and trying to hurt myself over everything. i want to be strong for everyone around me but sometimes i just want to break down and give up. i dont want to live anymore, i want to go to sleep and not wake up the next morning. i dont know how i can help myself and im really tired and my head hurts from crying so much. im so weak, i cant even keep my shit together for 5 days. i hate myself guys, im not comfortable with myself and im not comfortable with who i am as a person. shouldnt i be though? its funny how people say you have to learn to love yourself before anyone else can. what if you cant learn? what if you never learn how to do that? then what do you do, live and die alone with no one but yourself there to hold you up? i cant do this anymore, i cant live like this anymore. wendy im sorry that im saying all this stuff when youve been through worse. to be honest wendy, i look up to you. youve hung in there since you were 8 years old. but ive only felt what you felt for a few months now. can i ask you something though, is this just the beginning or the breaking point?
