Our Laughter Lines (Dan Smith Fanfiction) - Watty's 2014

Deeper - Chapter 2

"Always cramming, sister!" Ryan said making me look around trying to understand where the voice came from. 

"What...? Oh it's you Ryan... you scared me..." I said still with a terrified face.

"Girl! It's 5!" Ryan shouted putting his hands on my shoulders, making me giggling. "Since when have you been studying, nerd?"

"Huhhhh... Since 1... I guess..." I said looking at the time on my phone.

"And your brain doesn't explode? We need Starbucks, now!" Unexpectedly he grabs my hand and pulls me to the bedroom. "Put your sneakers on and get your jacket!"

I quickly got ready, putting my vans on but I couldn't find my bag.

"I've got your bag!" Ryan shouted 

"Oh, what a relief! I thought I've lost it..." I stopped talking and. "Uhhhh you so damn hot with your bag, babe...! 

Then Ryan tried to imitate a lady and I couldn't help but laughing. 

We downed the stairs of the building and walked a little until the underground station.

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"Who would save you from the hours of the endless study hours, if it wasn't me?" My twin said with a cocky expression. "None"

"Yeah. I know that sometimes I need to have some fun." 

"Sis, I've noticed this for a while, and I feel like you've less happy... Is there something wrong?"

"Huhhh... well, you know... relationships have highs and lows and... mine is going through that stuff" I didn't know where to start.

"Yeah... but what has been happening?"

"You know... when I'm with someone I give everything... and I always want things to work out... but feels like he doesn't... 'cause he doesn't make an effort... I feel like I'm the only one trying..." I blurted.

"Honey, for an relationship work out, it takes two, not one, two." He told me holding my hand and looking into my eyes. "Relationships must complete us not bring us down. Make us happier not sadder" 

"I know... I really don't know what to do..." I looked down at my Caramel Flan Frappuccino. 

"Is this recent...?" My brother asked me. He was deeply concerned about me.

"He's been different since a few weeks ago... and I'm getting tired of all this shit..." I was frustrated. "Can we get out of here?" I got up, picking up my Frappuccino. As long we were leaving Starbucks I felt my eyes burning. But this time, I coudn't avoid and tears started streaming down my face. Ryan hugged me tight and I buried my face on his chest. I cried lots  while my bro was kissing my forehead and playing with my curly hair. "Everything's going to be okay, sweetie." He whispered in my ear. Then I felt more relieved, lighter. 

"I love you so much, fool!" I smiled looking up. My bro was very tall.

"Me too, silly. I'm here never forget that!" 

"I will not." I replied still in his arms. And we made our way to home.

A/N Did you notice the reference to Coldplay's Fix You? ;) 

*****

'Been thinking about the little things you said. It doesn't sink it and you fought above my head. 'Cause I'm scared. I can't lie. I don't feel the same inside...'

I woke up to Ella Eyre's voice. What an amazing song to wake up. 'Cause I'm scared. I can't lie. These are lines that currently I can relate a lot to. I picked my phone still playing the music and checked the hours. 9am. I got up and went to the kitchen. I think my brother could hear the music, because when I realized he was in the kitchen, he was dancing. I started laughing while I was putting bread on the toaster. 

"What?! You are dancing in the morning?! Are you okay?!" I said between laughs. 

"Who sings this? What a great song to wake up to!" Then I joined Ryan. We were ridiculous but we didn't care 'cause we were having fun, singing "Got no feeling in my soul! For you I just don't know! I can't see it! I don't feel it! I need to dig a little deeper!"

"It's Ella Eyre, honey!" I said 

"She's really good!"

When the toaster beeped, we stopped. Ryan took out the orange juice and the butter from the fridge and we went together to the table of the living room. 

"So what do you plan doing today?" Bro asked biting his toast.

"I'm gaining courage to end with this..." My bro wiped a tear that escaped from my eyes. 

"I've seen you very happy with him, but honey... you're not anymore" Ryan stroked my cheek. He always knew what I was talking about.

"We need to talk. Meet up at 11, at Leah's café?" I texted John. 10 minutes afterwards I got a reply. "OK", was everything he said. Grrrrrrr.

"Do you want me to go with you?" My bro asked carefully. Guess he was a little bit afraid of an explosive reaction.

"No, I can do it by myself." I forced a smile.

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A/N So what do you think of this guys? I want to thank you all because you are are a-maz-zing! I loooove ya! ;)