Watch me. {taylor caniffs sister}

Cahpter 12

"One for not being good enough for Matthew
Two for not bring pretty
Three for not being skinny
Four for coming into this world
Five for being Taylor's unwanted sister
Six for my parents hating me
Seven for being a fuck up
Eight for being a mistake
Nine for the fans hating me
Ten for being me. The unwanted ugly bitchy me
Eleven for my ugly past and
Twelve for being here where any girl would want my place."
I say while I cut into my skin while crying. "I'm sorry Matthew" is all i think. He's going to hate me and break up with me and put me into a whole new world of depression. I get up and clean my wrists. Six on each. One for each of the members. I clean up my wrists and get one of Matthews hoodies that are to big on me to wear. I sit on the bed and think why? Why am I here? Why does my life fucking suck? Why? I hold back my tears and close my eyes. I open them to see a figure standing in the door. "Hey babe" I hear Matthew say. oh shit no. Please no don't realize that I cut. Please. i don't answer him and he comes over to me. "Are you okay?" he asks. "NO MATTHEW IM NOT OKAY. MY LIFE SUCKS AND and I-I'm sorry." I say. "why are you sorry babe?" he asks. "I-I-I did it a-a-again." I say. "Riley...why?" he asks. "I have a reason for all twelve...twelve one for all of you." I say. "What're the reasons babe?"
"One for not being good enough for you
Two for not being pretty
Three for not being skinny
Four for coming into this world
Five for being Tay's unwanted sister
Six for my parents hating me
Seven for being a fuck up
Eight for being a mistake
Nine for being me
Eleven for my fucking past
And twelve...for being in a place where any other girl would want to be." I say.
"Riley...if anyone in this relationship isn't good enough it's me. Your right your not pretty your gorgeous. Look at you. You weigh like 80 pounds. Your the best thing that's happened to me. Your not a fuck up your perfect. Your you because i love you so much. Your past doesn't matter now all that matters is that your okay and you stay okay. Your here in this place because all twelve of us love you okay?" He tells me. I don't answer just look down at my fingers. He sits down next to me. I look up at him and he tugs my waist making me sit I his lap. He turns me around so I'm facing him. I lay my head on his shoulder and put my arms around his neck. He puts his arms around my waist slowly working them up to my lower back, rubbing small circles in my back. I slowly drifted off to sleep on his shoulder.

Matts pov
Riley makes me so sad sometimes. She fell asleep on my shoulder and looked so cute. Taylor came in and smiled. He laid down in the other bed. I unhooked her arms and I laid her down so she would be more comfortable. I got up and took her jean shorts off. I left her in her underwear and tank top. I took off my shirt and my khakis and put on some basketball shorts. I laid down next to her, wrapping my arms around her waist. She cuddled into a ball and buried her head in my chest. I kissed her forehead and said "goodnight perfection." "AWW THABKS BOO ILYSM" Taylor yelled. I chuckled but then said "goodnight to you too idiot."