What is love? (Austin Mahone - Complete) (Rewriting)

Chapter 15 - He Can Join

My head was spinning, my skin was covered in a thin layer of warm sweat though I felt like it was in the negatives of degrees in the room. My eyes were filling up with tears as they burned, trying to stay open. I sat on the edge of my bed, my legs hanging over as my arms were across my chest, the pain of the side effects was a little too much for me, yet there was nothing I could do. Austin and Alex left a couple of hours ago, Alex was the first one to start Heating, his body getting tense next to mine as he bit his lip, keeping himself from moaning. But once the sound came out his mouth, Austin quickly sat up and walked around the bed, taking himself and Alex out of the room. I assumed Austin then started going through it. I was told by Robert to stay in my room until the Heating was over for them, only if I wanted to. He told me that I could go to them and try to "help" them out, but I knew that if I wanted to, they wouldn't let me in their rooms. They could smell if I was close, they could even smell me through these walls. After Robert's visit two hours ago, no one has been in or out of my room. I stayed, sitting on the bed all this time, trying to get my mind off it, but nothing was working. 

I got up and ran to the door, opening it before running to the bathroom in the three rooms on each side. I ran inside the bathroom and slammed the door behind me, locking it, my frames coming through the wood. I placed my back against the door, closing my eyes as they adjusted to the light coming through the window. I walked to the sink and placed my hands on the edges, keeping myself up for support. I opened my eyes and looked in the mirror; my eyes were the small dark green as before, my cheeks hot from the cold sweats, my bangs sticking to my forehead. I looked down and turned on the cold water, sniffling as I leaned over the sink and splashing cold water on my face. I looked back up at the mirror, seeing the water running down my face. It felt good for a moment, but the temperature of my face was too hot. I turned off the water and shook my hands a couple of times before grabbing the towel and dabbing it on my face before drying my hands. I put my hands back on the edges of the sink and took deep breathes before unlocking the door, opening it as I ran back into my room. 

Once in my room, I saw Austin standing next to my bed, and once I came in, his head quickly looked at me, his eyes a bright pink. Before I knew it, I was pinned up the back of the door, closing my room off the hallway, Austin's chest against mine. He grabbed my hands and pinned them against the door. He leaned in close and took a long breath, smelling me.

"Fuck..." he whispered, putting his head in the middle of my neck and my shoulder

I leaned forward, enjoying how he was acting; needing me. 

"Do it, Aussy," I said, his breathing traveling up from where he was at to my neck, kissing it for a second. 

"I can't," he whispered, "No matter how much I want you," 

I bit my lip as he pressed his body closer to me, feeling every part of my body that's in front. 

"Plus," he said in between breaths, pulling his head away from me to look me in my eyes, his hand placed under my chin, "It wouldn't be fair to Alex," 

"He could join," I said, staring at his lips

He was about to give a small smile but ended up not doing so. I slowly leaned his head forward as his cold lips met mine. We should like that for a minute before he slowly started to move his lips with mine. He started off slow before he got a little rougher, his other hand moving to my hip as I placed both my hands in his hair. We pressed against each other as we continued to make out before he moved away, his lips kissing down to my neck, finding a spot and placing his mark. I moaned, pulling at his hair, hearing a grunt come out. He then moved back up to my neck.

"I'm sorry, I can't," he said. 

"Lies," I said as he bit his bit "You can't lie to me anymore, Aussy,"

"I know I can't," he said "I don't want to hurt you. Once I start, I won't be able to stop."

I moved my fingers out of his hair and put them on his shoulders, pushing him back a bit so we can be face to face. His eyes were still the same as before, and I could tell he was telling the truth. He put both of his hands on both sides of my face. 

"Soon," he said, "I want to out of love, not lust." 

I nodded as he placed his last kiss on my lips before completely backing away, just staring at me before I moved, him opening the door and walking out, closing the door behind him. Even though he left, I could feel him on the other side of the door, his back up against it, him breathing heavier like it took everything in him not to do anything to me. If he only lasted four hours, I wonder how long it will be before he's back in my room, pinning me up against the wall again. 

I started to walk to my bed but fell down as pain came over my right shoulder. I put my hand on my shoulder and tried to steady my breathing, but the pain, the burning into my skin was a lot worse than Tyler's scars appearing on me. I gave out a heavy scream as the sound of burning became louder by my ear. The pain started at my shoulder and ended at my mid-back. A second later, I heard the door open and Robert appeared by my side, grabbing me and pulling me to him. 

"It's okay, it's okay, you're just getting the imprints," Robert said as tears ran down my face, screams still escaping

I felt his head turn towards the door, and I knew that Austin was still there.