Young Wings • h.hj & h.js

23

"Is it my fault Felix!?" You asked, voice already raw from all of the crying.

It was currently passed eight. Hyunjin had went to his room early that night and just when Felix was about to go to his room to sleep, he heard noise by the sparring area.

At first, he dismissed it, thinking that it was another one of those knights who were obsessed with perfecting their skill. But when he entered his room and realized that you weren't there, all of the pieces seemed to click and immediately rushed over.

His eyes went wide when he saw you charge at an already very beat up dummy as you let out raw, frustrated battle cries. "y/n what the hell?! Your injuries haven't fully healed yet!" His scream filled the chilly night sky and your actions came to a stop, your sword already lodged half-way on the wooden dummy's neck.

"Felix?" Your red nose, tear-stained eyes and heavy breaths were enough of a sign from Felix.

"You were overthinking again?"

You pursed your lips.

No. You wanted to say no. You're whole body just wanted to put on that usual happy facade and say 'No. I was just- I missed training'. You hated being a burden to other people and right now, you felt as though if you poured your heart out at Felix, he'd be obligated to comfort you because you shared a piece of yourself. 

If you thought about it.
Aside from Hyunjin, Changbin and Seungmin, Felix was one of the people who had been there for you for the longest time. You both started training to become knights at around the same period, had similar interests, shared a room and clicked really well.

Probably, the only reason why you never opened up to him or anyone else for that matter was because you were always with Hyunjin. You were always by his side. That and the fact that ever since your father passed away and you started training, you had learned to become independent.

The only person who you opened up to (but rarely did so) was Hyunjin.

And you realized that, if you and Hyunjin had never become close (which also meant that you wouldn't meet Seungmin) and since Changbin was like an older brother, Felix would've probably been your closest friend.

"y/n... you do know that you can tell me anything, right?"

Felix's deep voice got carried away once agian by the cool breeze that the night gave. And as you stared at the boy who stood a few feet apart from you, you saw something in his eyes that you didn't expect.

Sadness.

You quickly wiped away stray tears, pulled your sword out of the dummy's neck and slowly stepped towards Felix, closing the distance between you both to a mere few inches.

"y/n... I know that I'm not your closest friend. But you've always been mine" He says with a small smile. His mouth showed joy but his eyes told a different story.

"You don't need to tell me anything if you don't want to but I want you to know that... if things get messed up -which they are now- you can always run to me"

And that statement made you lose it.

Which is how you ended up seated beside Felix, leaning against a wall, cookies that he stole from the kitchen for you in your hands as you cried your heart out.

You told him the reasons why you were so frustrated. You hated how you were so conflicted with your feelings because you knew that you had every right to be mad at Hyunjin (for what he said about you being a knight) but couldn't stay mad at him for a even a second but at the same time hated how you were so petty. You were also  irritated over the fact that you were hurt when he very willingly allowed you to go earlier.