The Ties That Bind

Chapter 19

I couldn't believe I was a mom now. I labored for 12 hours total and it was all worth it. I had a beautiful baby girl. It made me sad that I wouldn't be able to keep her or give her the life she wanted because I had a short time span to live.
I held Taylor in my arms and for once I felt safe. She was my person now.
It's been a couple of days since I've talked to Giselle. I still decided to give Taylor to her.
She told me a lot and I couldn't believe Tremaine was married all this time, I most definitely couldn't believe that she was Ava's sister. The shit was crazy. I thought to myself , Taylor being with a adoptive parent wouldn't be so bad. I was adopted. I don't know who my birth parents we're. All I know was that they dropped me off at an orphanage. I mean it's sad but it was the best thing they could have ever did for me, if they didn't do nothing else.

I stared at Taylor and watched her make faces while she slept. She looked exactly like Drew.
I held her for as long as I could.. My case worker came in to my room and talked with me... We went over the paperwork. I decided for a closed adoption. Seeing her with someone else would only make me even more sad and hate Drew.
I decided on a plan for Drew. Since he threatened to kill me and possibly hurt our baby. I was going to do that favor for him. I was going to kill him. That would be the last thing I do. I'm doing it for Taylor and maybe Ava.
I held my daughter and cried a little I was really stupid enough to get in this type of situation. But I would soon get out of it. I waited and waited. No Giselle. I didn't see or hear from her but the doctor came in to talk.
"Lacy. " she said. She walked in and closed the door.
"We need to talk. " she finished.
"Yes doc about what? " I asked. There wasn't anymore news that they could give me that I didn't already know and prepare myself for.
"Well we ran your blood work five times and you are not HIV positive. " she stated.
I was looking at her and I started laughing.
"I was diagnosed months ago with that and HPV. "

"Lacy no you are perfectly healthy. We ran your test multiple times. No HIV. And so far as having HPV , it's a pap smear test that you get annually and it determines whether you have certain genes and if you are a carrier for that disease. You are a carrier for HPV but that doesn't necessarily mean you have, it has to be repeated when you go back in a year. " she replied. She walked over to me and handed me the paper work and showed me the results showed me what was normal and what wasn't. Thank you Jesus! Thank you Jesus! Thank you Jesus! Was all I said over and over in my head.
"Omg so I don't have neither? " I kept asking to confirm.
"No you don't, now you don't have to put baby Taylor up for adoption. " she said.
"Thank God I've based my life around that HIV stuff for months, now your telling me I get to keep my baby. Wait, so what about my OB the one that diagnosed me? " I asked curiously
"What is her name? I'll check the states database for her. " she opened her pad to write.
"Her name is Patricia Williams" I stated.
"Ok I'll check the database system for her and see if I can get access to your medical records. Sounds like a plan? " she asked.
I nodded yes. She stated she would talk to the social case worker about the results and see if I can proceed to keep my baby. I was so happy I didn't know what to do. I didn't have no one to call. But I sat and thought about everything she just said. Now it's a higher possibility that Drew would want me dead. I'll be fucking up his marriage again with Ava. It was become a mess. She's having twins and I know she told me she had sex with Drew. I wouldn't be surprised if they we're his. But it didn't matter. I was on a mission.

*********
Days later it was time for Taylor and I to be released from the hospital. It was bitter sweet because I didn't know what I was going to do from here. I didn't have anything planned.
I didn't want to go back to my dads place and deal with him and Jody and even my mom fake ass. How you could ignore your own flesh and blood because of a mistake. So I needed a plan. I was scared to move back to Atlanta right now and get caught in the cross fire of all this mess. So I did the only thing I could think of. As I was packing my nurse told me I had a visitor. Who the fuck would visit me? I thought. I told her to let them in but to watch closely on my room for me she took note. I was shocked as hell to see this guest.

"Hey Lacy. " he said. He smelled like old bengay and Scotch.
"Hello. " I said back.
"So this is her? " he asked walking over to the baby bed Taylor was in.
"Yes it is. "
"She looks like us you know." He said. He picked her up and rubbed her head.
"Yes. Mr. Phillips she does. "
"You know we are on a first name basis now Lacy. " he replied.
"Well ok Damon. Why are you here again? Drew is back in Atlanta. " I said still packing our bags.
"I'm here for my daughter. " he said. He calmly sat down in the rocking chair and rocked Taylor. She cooed in his arms and he made shushing noises to calm her.
"No, we agreed that we would proceed with the plan. So that I could have Drew and he'll leave Ava and you'll have him right back where you want him , back in the business. " I said.
"Well I changed the fucking plan! Drew is smarter then you think. He will get a test and it would come back not his. He'll try to have you killed and come straight to me. " he replied.
"I mean I really didn't think this through. It happened so fast. How am I supposed to get Drew away from Ava?"
"That's something you have to figure out Lace. But in the mean time did you leave any evidence that could retrace back to me? " he asked still rocking Taylor.
"no I don't think so the apartment was spotless when I left I didn't even leave a bill laying around. "
"Yeah because I would hate for something to happen to anyone. " he said. He got up to put Taylor back in the baby bed. And took his seat again.
"It's all handled. I probably plan to go back soon but Drew will try to kill me. "
"I would kill you too if I found out you had a baby by my father and passed it over as my baby in an attempt to win me over from your best friend slash sister. " he said.
He was right Drew would kill me if he found out that Taylor was actually his father's Damon baby. In the beginning I was so in love with Drew and wanted him away from Ava I still do. I did anything to make him lean my way but I think I made him even more upset and want to kill me more. Damon came to me with an offer and I didn't want to pass it up. He wanted Drew away from Ava, I wanted Drew away from Ava as well. What better way to get them to divorce each other. He had me set the whole plan up. Me accidentally telling Drew where Ava stayed. Putting me in the middle. I was one step closer.
"Ava isn't my sister and I'm not even sure she's my best friend. "
"Yes she is your blood sister from your birth father. Her father. " he said.
I sat back in the bed and twisted my face up and crossed my arms..
"My birth parents are dead. " I replied sure of it.
" no they aren't. They have been in your face the whole time. "
What the fuck is he talking about?
"So Ava is my sister by blood because we have the same birth father that put me up for adoption when I was a baby? " I asked for clarification.
He nodded yes.
"I don't believe you. "
"Go do your research baby girl."
"So who is my birth mom? "
"Now that's something you have to figure out for yourself keep looking baby you're closer then you think. " he replied. Ok I have took in the muthafucking storm and the rain over the last year and I was losing my marbles now! I can't take anymore news.
"Wow ok. " I got frustrated.
"Meanwhile you get my son away from Ava and back in the game with me and I'll make sure you live. This Ava mess caused my business to fail without Drew being around. I have come to far to let it go down the drain. I approached you a year ago with the plan and you accepted, don't make a fool out of me Lacy. " he pointed to me..
I missed because from day one I knew I was being a snake and plotting against my best friend. But I didn't know she was my blood sister. I feel like Damon knew all along, who I was to her and used me as bait to get his son back where he needed him to be. It sounded good to me at the time because I wanted Drew so badly. There wasn't shit I could do besides follow through with my plan. It's kill or be killed. I had to come up with another plan as soon as possible or otherwise shit will unfold.