Still The Good Girl?

Chapter 11

I wake up and feel a heavy thing over my stomach that is making it hard to breath. I'm too warm to get up so I just snuggle up to the warmness and try to fall back to sleep. Then I notice that the pillow is hard but warm and moving. I finally open my eyes and see a body. I scream causing them to wake up. I finally notice who the body is, it's Luke, everything from last night come back to me.

Luke wakes up from my scream earlier. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing I'm just not used to waking up with a boy in my bed" I say.

"Well I can tell you that that will never happen" he tells me. Yea right.

"Well I think that until we get out of here I will, you are here aren't you?" I say.

"Well I'm no boy, I'm a man, well a teen but I'm not a boy I've known that for a while now" he says confidently.

"Sure you are keep telling yourself that" I Tell him while getting out of bed. I go into the kitchen and go to make myself some breakfast.

"Really your making yourself breakfast already?" luke asks me.

"I'm sure you don't want me cranky now do you? My breakfast is your coffee" I say which explains everything.

"Okay I'll leave you to it. I'll be taking a shower if you need me. So stay out of the room, unless you want something?" He wiggles his eyebrows suggestively at me.

"Just go" I say laughing lightly at him. God what is he doing to me. He might not be as bad as people say or what I've been thinking of him all along.

After I eat my breakfast, I put my bowl in the sink and I go get a glass of water. I walk to my purse and get out my Advair and look for my allege medicine and pain killers for my headaches from the concussion. I have really bad alleges epically in the winter. I grab them both and go back into the kitchen and take my Advair and my medication.

Luke walks into the kitchen and walks over to me. He looks at what I'm doing and sees my medication and his face turns from a smile to a frown. I don't know why but when I go to put everything back he stops me by grabbing my arm and pulls me so I'm looking at him.

I look into his eyes and get lost in their color. He smells so good I could just sit here all day and be surrounded by all day. I was snapped out of my thoughts by Luke talking.

"What sorry I wasn't listening" Why did I just say that. I mentally face palm myself for saying that.

"What are these?" he asks pointing to my medication.

"My medication that I have to take. My pain killers for my migraines that I'm getting from my concussion you gave me and my allege medicine for well, my alleges" I say giving him a weird look.

"Oh okay sorry, I thought it was something else" he says with an apologetic look on his face.

"What did you think they were, drugs or something?" I say jokingly.

"No! I didn't think that!" he says really fast. Okay that was weird. I put them back and then I start to walk to the room.

"I'm taking a shower and don't come in at any point until I get out and give the all clear. Got it?" I ask him and he just nods. I go and do my normal morning routine. I'm finished with everything but my hair. I want to do an upside down Dutch braid into a bun, but I'm having trouble doing it myself.

"Here let me help you, what do you want me to do?" Luke asks.

"No it's fine I can do it myself" I tell him.

"No really I do Anna's hair all the time for dance and school" he insists.

"Okay, fine, can you do an upside down Dutch braid into a bun?" I asked him really sweetly.

"Sure I can do that. Is there a certain type of bun that you would like?"

"No. Surprise me. Just not a messy bun I don't like those"

"Okay one messy bun coming up" he jokes around. I'm surprised that Luke does an awesome job on my hair.

"Thank you!" I really think that I am finding the good side in Luke. He has been really kind to me.

"Clary?" Luke brings me out of my thoughts.

"Yea?" I ask back.

"Do you think that we can talk about something?" he asks slowly.

"Yea sure of course we can!" I don't know why I'm being so kind to him but I feel that he is being kind to me I should be to him, I guess. It's the right thing to do.

"I would like to explain the reason for the fight I had with Peter. Do you even know why we had that fight?" as soon as he said that my face dropped.

"No I don't but I'm pretty sure you just needed to get some 'anger' out. Or he accidently bumped into you and with your big ego you thought he started it. I don't give a shit!" I snap. I try to walk away but he grabs my arm shooting sparks up my arm. He brings me back to him so hard that I almost fall.

"No! That is not why! It is because I heard your so called friend and his group of 'friends' saying things that should never be done to someone, 'cause it's wrong and would make a girl hate them self for the rest of their life, and it was about someone who I care about, someone who deserves anything in the world. Plus she has enough sit going on in her life I wish I could just hold her and take every bad thing away and give her only good. Have my arms a safe place not somewhere where she could get hurt. I wish I could be a part of her life but I'm not good enough for her, so I stay away so I can't hurt her, ever! I would die if anything happened to her. I want to protect her, be close to her but I can't, her brother has already beat me for doing something so little for her" his voice is dripping with pain and wanting and I wish I could do something. His face looks like he is in a daze or something but I snap him out of it.

"I'm sorry" I wish I could do something "Who is she?"

"Um what sorry just leave me alone" He snaps "Oh and it's no one you know"

"Okay fine, night" and with that I walk away and head towards the room. When I get there I shut the door and I go lay on the bed. I close my eyes hoping sleep would just take over me.

I'm tired, yes, but my mind is on what Luke said. I feel so bad for him. But now I know that I defiantly can't have him, no way in the world. And you wanna know why... he's in love.