sublime [2]

[08] uh oh, here we go again.

a week has been gone. i was going to meet chelsey today. since i had accepted the job she had further information to give me as she told me.

i was getting ready — i put on a casual outfit: a white cropped and jeans.

i took a picture to upload to my instagram later, then followed downstairs to eat before going.

"... and also you and skies will be in the same hotel. that doesn't mean you will be all the time with him. you don't have to, but you will actually need to be most of it with him. but don't worry, you will have your own time for your own self." chelsey kept explaining to me everything that i'd need to know. she also gave me some papers to read through and then sign it, which means i'll have to be back here to give the papers before the tour starts.

i nodded to her words showing her that i agreed with it. i'm honestly worried about the "same hotel" part. or the "need to be most of the time with him", because i still have feelings for him and i honestly don't wanna do things that i'll regret later. it'll be hard for me.

i stood up and before leaving with a few papers in my hand, i shook chelsey's hand and thanked her.

i headed out to my car and took a deep breath, letting my head fall back. i'm not sure if i'm ready for this. might be a little too much, i'm honestly scared. but i can't give up now.

i heard two knocks on the passenger's window, which made my eyes suddenly open and look over at it — it was skies.

i unlocked the doors and he opened it, getting in and then closing the same door.

"well hello." he smiled at me. i smiled back with a nod. "how was it?"

"it what?"

"ouch, where were you, babe?" he chuckled as if it was obvious — and duh, of course it was. everybody know i'm a little too slow some times.

"ohhhhh, yeah, of course," giggles left my mouth, showing how stupid i felt. "it was good. i got some papers here." i raised my hand that held the papers. he glanced over at it and nodded, pouting his lips out.

"that's cool. are you excited about it?" oh how i am. i nodded my head and he nodded back.

"wanna go somewhere?" i asked starting the car. it was more like 'are you going with me or leaving?'.

"sure." he shrugged and put his seatbelt on. uh oh, here we go again.

skies connected his phone to my car and put some songs to play. we didn't really talk on the way there, we just sang along to the lyrics. we ended up deciding to go to a café, since both of us was starving and wanted to chill for a bit.

as soon as we found a table outside i texted diego telling him where i was and asking him if he wanted to come. i knew he would want to, because i'm alone with skies.

diego and skies hadn't been fighting or discussing in a long time, but i know deep down they still dislike each other.

"so how's your life been?" i asked skies to break the silence that was between us.

"uh, let's say good." he shrugged followed by a giggle. "each time better. now my life's been settling down, you know? i've been doing a lotta shows and shit." i nodded to his words. he was really doing good in life. "how's yours?"

"meh..." i started off, chuckling. "the same. a bit less busier though."

"that's good, no?" i shrug. i didn't really know if it was. maybe if it wasn't... things would be different. who knows.

"i don't even know." i let a sigh out of my mouth. "but hey, we never talked about your album!" skies' face now had a small and shy smile showing.

"did you listen to it?"

"i did. it's great!" i smiled gently, making him look down giggling.

"thanks. i worked hard on that shit." he looked back up at me, landing his eyes on mines.

"well, it is clear that you did."

"but hey," he started off copying me. "i saw you now have an account for your job where you upload some shots, huh?" he raises one of his eyebrows. "i like it."

"yes, it was an advice from lana, and it did work out really well." i don't know what i'd be without lana, to be honest. "thanks, skies." skies frowned as he looked to the street beside us. "what?"

"do you know my real name? i'm just curious."

i chuckled to his question. "duh, yeah i do, kimetrius."

"oh, great." he laughed. "you always called me skies so i was just wondering."

"that's alright." the truth is that i never felt close enough to him to call him by his name. and every time i was starting to feel close enough, we got apart. like when we were... a thing? or when skies and diego made peace and we started hanging out again very often, but then we got apart too, since both of us was trying to focus on our work.

i looked to my right, when i saw diego approaching to our table. every time the three of us were together i still felt a bit weird. because all i was trying to do was keep being a close friend to an 'ex', while dating a guy that i thought would be the one. but something was always off, and eventually i discovered what it was: i still love skies.