sublime [2]

[18] it's one or another

i woke up beside skies. on the same bed, sharing the same duvet. i quickly looked under it and thanked God i wasn't naked.

i stood up and walked into the toilet, as i made my way there, flashbacks from yesterday came in my head, making me curse my own self.

i was just a bit drunk. i knew what i was doing. i knew i shouldn't be doing that. and yet, i did do it.

i'm not... regretting it, i just know it was wrong and that i shouldn't have done it. i did what i most hated for so long. what made me suffer the most, i did the same to diego. that wasn't fair.

i heard a knock on the door and turned around quickly. "kota?" skies' voice echoed in the toilet.

"yes?" my voice croaked. shit.

"are you okay?" he asked sounding worried.

"uh, yes." i slowly made my way back to the door and opened it. there he was, the guy that turned my life upside down. he was only wearing a black ripped jeans, no top. his braids were falling down on his face, and his sleepy face made a small smile come on my mine. "i was just... uh, you know," i reaches for my phone in my back pocket, checking the time. "it's almost time for us to leave so, i was just getting ready." i let out a small, nervous laugh.

"do you remember much about yesterday?" he asked, sending a shiver down my spine. what should i answer?

"yeah... uh, kinda. not much though." i lied. with that, maybe i could see his reaction or maybe he'd even let out something that would lead me to tell him if i remember about yesterday or not.

skies scratched the back of his neck and looked to his side, biting his lower lip. fuck! "yeah, me too." i felt a mix of relief and sadness inside me.

relief because i wouldn't have to hear what we did yesterday or feel pressured about it, but sadness because... it meant something to me. kissing him after so long, telling him what i felt for him... it was something. but of course, he was drunk. what did i expect?

"ah, well, good thing we both got clothes on, right?" a nervous laugh came out of my lips as he nodded grinning.

"i'll let you finish whatever you're doing... i'll go down and solve the key problem." he said walking back in the direction of his closet. that meant he did remember some things from yesterday, huh?

"sure. thanks, ki." ki? really, dakota?

he looked back and smirked at me, which did get him a smile from me before i closed the door to the toilet.