EXO Kai Drabbles/Scenarios

The mess I made (Kai)

He held my face in his hands, looked into my eyes and gave me the sweetest kiss I ever had. My heart beat so fast, I could feel it in my throat; I could barely breathe and he was taking the all the air I had in my lungs with that kiss. My hands were shaking and I felt how my knees weakened.

Jongin always took the best of me. I yearned for his touch all the time and when we were together the only thing I wished was it to never be over. The time flew with him, it was never enough. But he always left a warm feeling in my heart when the day was over.

But then I had Kai... his twin brother... the total opposite of the sweet and gentle Jongin. He drives me insane. From the way he stands and bites his lips looking at me to the was he kissed me with so much lust and hunger, sliding his tongue inside my mouth without asking, how he grabbed my butt and pulled me closer, how he whispered in my ear how much he wanted me.

It's never boring with him, he shows me other view of life. I enjoy and love life with him; I feel alive. All my senses are awake when he is around, I'm on alert and I can't take my eyes away from him.

I couldn't shut the screams down. I could see how they threw and broke things. I could hear the sobs after saying terrible things. I could feel how their hearts broke in front of my eyes, how they broke because of me. The room was a mess, nothing of the old tidy room was left.

"She needs to decide Kai... you can't choose for her. It's either you or me... or worse. No one" Said Jongin with a shaky voice.

He was right. I had to choose. I couldn't let them torn apart more that this. They were brothers, best friends, they were one. They were the two guys I loved the most and I couldn't control what I felt for them. It was hard, thinking of choosing one and leaving the other behind. I couldn't do it. This was like a hurricane, it was destroying everything we had.

How did it become like this? I don't know... We were perfectly okay being like the three musketeers. We were inseparable but now we couldn't be all together in the same room or we would create a mess just like this. One day we were laughing together by the Han river and the next day I was kissing their lips. Even when I felt terrible I couldn't stop. They had total control of me when we were alone. I was weak and stupid and nothing I could do would make them leave.

I looked up with tears in my eyes and saw them looking at me, waiting for my answer. Jongin? The boy who always took care of me, who held my hand and made me laugh until my belly hurt? The puppy who took me to eat to all the restaurants of the city and gave me flowers every time we met? Kai? The one who showed me all the hidden places of the city, the one who kissed me under the rain and defended me from anyone. The one who made me feel safe even when we were doing something risky.

I walked to them and hugged each one of them for a long time. I held their hands and looked at the ground. I couldn't do it... I wanted them both.. It was selfish but I did. I needed both.

"I can't choose between you two. You make me feel complete, I need everything you both give me. You two are perfect and there's no way I can think one is better than the other one"

This shocked them, I could see the confusion on their faces. "I won't choose... I'll go. It's the best. No one should make you both fight". The pain was too much. I started sobbing, I felt as if I had a lump in my throat.

Jongin stroke my cheek and wiped my tears away, Kai hugged me and they both smiled. "You are one of a kind Y/N... Said Kai. I'll stand by your side even if it means that I have to let you go with my brother."

"No, I'm the one who will let you go, take care of you from the shadows, protect you when Kai isn't around and be there when you feel lonely. If you don't choose then we will, and I guess we can sort this out somehow".

"We are one after all" Said Kai. "And you are the piece that is missing for us to be complete. And we'll wait, for you to finally decide or set us free... But we will be here, trying to fix this mess. Trying to make your heart happy."