Hey guys! So I woke up a like an hour ago and thought about writing something for you guys before I went to do more homework. Anyways, this was an old request and I hope that the anon who made it, still remembers it. Love, Admin A
I had to runaway. I had to leave and never see him again. I couldn't take it, my heart wouldn't have made it if I stayed.
Every time I saw them smile, a tiny part of me inside broke. Every time I saw him holding her hand, my heart teared. Every time they kissed, I couldn't stop thinking that it should be me. Every time I saw her, I knew it wasn't love.
Love was what I had always felt for Jongin, she was after another thing. I lied to myself at the beginning, saying I didn't mind seeing them together. I thought I could get over it, that I could leave it behind. But how do you do that when the love of your life, belongs to someone else.
"Are you okay?" She asked me after she told me they were dating. "I thought you would be happy for me" she pouted trying to act cute completely forgetting the times I asked her to help me. We weren't really close, I barely knew her but somehow she found out about my feelings for Nini. She had promised to help me, yet she was only helping herself.
At night I cried, I cried for the one I had lost. Many told me to show him my feelings, but I wasn't like that. I didn't want to ruin it, specially when I knew Nini really liked her. No one ever knew what was happening to me, Nini never seemed to notice the distance that grew between us. But the boys did, they would see the girl they didn't get along with more than they would see Jongin's childhood friend, me. They had tried to call me, involve me, take me with them, but I always declined, I always said I had a lot to do even if I was just crawled in bed, reading the old book Jongin used to read me when we were young. I just didn't have a place in there anymore and I knew it was time to go. I had lost the battle.
How much it had passed since the last time I saw him? I couldn't tell. I couldn't even remember his beautiful smile anymore. Travelling around the world might have helped me to ease the pain, but at night he was the only thing in my mind. I would always love him. Did I ever think I would see him again? To be honest, I didn't. I didn't want to, yet there he was, in front of me under the rain across the street. He had recognized me after the years, he had smiled even after I stopped answering his calls. He had smiled for me, he had made me remember, remember how much I loved him.
"Wait! Don't go, not again!" He ran in my direction, grabbing my shoulder before I could vanish again. "Where... why did you leave?! I've been looking for you all these years?" "Why... I just... I had to" I knew I sounded cold, but it was better this way. "No you didn't, you could have told me! It took me three months for one of the boys to open their mouth. I've been regretting letting you go this whole time". I wasn't sure what I was hearing. For a moment I thought he meant it in the way I wished him to. But i couldn't be sure, maybe he still saw me as that childhood friend. "Why didn't you tell me you loved me..." It was pounding, I was cold. But his words were warm, and so were his arms that carefully surround me. "Because it was too late... You have her" "No. I never had her, you were always the one" "Then.. why Nini. Why didn't you tell me to stay?" "Because... I never thought you would love me the same way I love you"
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