Make Me Fall (ON HOLD)

Eight: The One...That Got Away

COLUMBUS

Mabilis kong niligpit ang gamit ko para makaalis na agad ako sa school at makauwi na. Another reason why I am in a hurry is because I don't want to attend the practice with that girl. Yung nasa music room kanina.

I got my I.D already. So no need to go to the place she mentioned earlier. Masasayang lang oras ko sakanya. Besides, she can do whatever she wants. I'm not even scared of being summoned at the disciplinary office. I can make alibis.

"4 mamaya ha." She said reminding me about our planned practice later. Nilampasan ko lang siya. She doesn't need to remind me dahil hindi ko naman nakalimutan.

"Oh shit." Napaatras ako at napapikit ng makita ko siya na nasa tapat ng pinto na para bang may hinihintay.

No. Hindi parang. Dahil ang totoo, may hinihintay talaga siya at alam kong ako iyon. The hell! Pano niya nalaman na dito ako nag ro-room? Uy putcha naman! Nakita niya nga pala yung i.d ko.

"Okay ka lang?" Napamulat ako sa biglang nag tanong. What's her name again? Yung babae na partner ko sa assignment. Damn it! I really suck at names.

"Wala wala." Umiling ako at muling bumalik sa upuan ko.

Think Columbus! Think! Damn it! Mukhang wala na akong ibang choice. I need to practice with her. Huminga muna ako ng malalim at saka lumabas. Pero sinaksak ko angbearphones ko sa tenga at mabilis na nag lakad.

Acting.

"Hoy! Hoy kuya!" Mas binilisan ko pa ang lakad ko ng marinig ko siyang tinawag ang pangalan ko.

Napangiti ako ng hindi ko na marinig ang boses niya. Mukhang umepekto yung acting ko at naniwala siya na hindi ko siya naririnig nung tinatawag niya ako at sumisigaw siya. Should I ask Sky to get me some project? Baka pwede na akong mag artista haha!

Nawala ang ngiti ko ng biglang may humarang sakin. Mula sa paa niya ay unti-unti kong iniangat ang tingin ko. Busted. I cursed inside my head when I saw her with both arms crossed and eyebrow raised. Giving me a where-do-you-think-you-are-going look.

Tinalikuran ko siya. Oo na talo na ako. Busted na. Wala na talagang ibang way kundi ang mag practice with her just like what she wanted.

"Let's make it fast. I don't have plenty of time." Saad ko sakanya at nag simulang maglakad papunta sa music room.

"What song?" Binaba ko ang bag ko dun sa mahabang upuan na pinagpatungan ng gitara. I tried to sound impatient. Dahil ayun naman ang totoo.

I don't do act like this. Pero dahil wala akong ibang option, kaya ginagawa ko na ngayon.

"Wala pa akong napipili eh." Tumayo siya sa harapan ko.

"Fuck it. Then practice yourself alone." Binaba ko ang gitara at dinampot ang bag ko. Kakasabi ko lang na I don't have plenty of time tapos sasabihin niya wala pa siyang kanta. Seriously?

"Rude. Impatient. Filthy mouth." She said those words na para bang binibilang niya ang mga masasamang ugali ko. Pero wala akong pakialam.

Pinlabas ko lang ito sa kabilang tenga ko at nag patuloy sa paglalakad papunta sa pinto. Hindi ako nakikipag laro. Wala akong oras sa mga ganitong bagay. She can call me whatever names. I don't give a fuck about it.

Nagpatuloy ako sa paglapit sa pinto. Walang makakapigil sakin. Kung sana nag ready na agad siya ng kanta niya, baka magstay pa ako para mag practice kasama siya. Kaso hindi eh. She doesn't even know what song to sing!

Summer after high school when we first met
Me make-out in your mustang to radiohead
And on my eighteenth birthday, we got matching tattoos

I froze when suddenly she began singing. This song. I know this song. I turned around to look at her but I found her sitting on that long chair and strumming the guitar. All I can see is her back. Nakatalikod siya sa akin.

Used to steal your parents liquor and climb to the roof
Talk about our future like we had a clue
Never planned that one day, I'd be losing you

Why? Why this song? What the hell is wrong with this woman? I don't want to hear this song! Bakit nya 'to kinakanta? Nananadya ba siya?

"Stop it." I said firmly. No. I don't want to hear this song. Not from anyone. Not from her! Damn it! Damn it!

In another life, I would be your girl
We keep all our promises be us against the world
In another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

"Fuck it Sab! I said stop!" I shouted. My voice echoed and I saw how she flinched because of it.

Napahimalos ako ng mga palad ko dahil sa nararamdaman ko ngayon. Why? Why now? Bakit kailangan niyang kantahin iyon? Bakit? Bakit siya bumalik!?

"Skyler." I felt my blood started to hit the boiling point when she called me by my second name.

"Don't call me that!" Sigaw ko na nagpapitlag muli sakanya. Nakatingin siya sakin. I looked at her with anger. Oo galit ako sakanya.

Galit ako sa babaeng iniwan ako. Galit ako sa babaeng pinagpalit ako sa taong mas higit sa akin. Galit ako sa babaeng iniwan ako na para bang walang halaga sakanya ang dalawang taon na pinagsamahan namin.

I hate her for leaving me. I hate her for choosing my best friend over me and our two year relationship.

I thought I was okay. Pero with her sudden appearance here, the anger I felt before became alive again. I thought I buried it already it seemed like that I failed. I failed burying it. No I still haven't move on.

"Don't you ever try to come near me." I left her in that room. I run towards the parking lot where my motorcycle was parked.

Fuck this day! Fuck it!

I put my helmet on and started the engine and stormed out of the parking lot. But yes, the pain successfully invaded my system. No. The pain didn't left my system. It never and it never will.

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