Lost

Chapter 1

I had my earphones in my ears with the music playing I really didn't know what song it was no I'm not deaf it was just my headache no this was more of a migraine. I got them quite often and most times they'd go away after awhile and if not that's when I turned to my fantasy world. Most kids think it's childish and I've been called a dreamer but I don't care any where was better then cold hard reality. As my migraine slowly died down I came back into reality just a bit longer I thought today I wanted to be in my fantasy world all day. As I get into reality I hear the sad song playing in my ears. It was quite normal for me to have sad songs on. Opening my eyes I look up at the unfamiliar ceiling then I see my cat Curtis come climbing on my bed. Curtis was a grey cat with a pink nose and a black line above. Curtis had come up by my side as I sat up he always loved to cuddle with me when we first got him he was to be a family cat but he quickly became mine and I was glad I could call him mine. I look around my room to see some of the unpack boxes and reality couldn't have hit any harder. See I had just moved i really didn't want to but my parents thought it be in my best interest to move but they were wrong.

"Hey kiddo." My mom said. I just gave my mom a half grin I really didn't want to talk to her anyone for that matter. Nobody got it they said talking about it would make things better but it didn't. So when ever the subject of what happened that night is brought up I shutdown I wouldn't make a sound. I had seen may therapist but none of them could get me to talk so they said give her time but that's one thing my parents didn't have they wanted the cheery Meghan not the sad a depressed Meghan.

"Relax I just wanted to see how your doing." My mom said.

"Well as you can see I'm fine." I said.

"You know you'll have to talk about it soon." She said.

"What if I don't want to." I said.

"Well dad and I want you to honey." She said.

"But I don't." I sad.

"Oh baby girl." She said and started to stroke my hair." What goes on in that head of yours?" She asked.

"Things only for me to see." I said.

"You know Bentley would want you to be happy." She sighed.

"Yeah there was a lot of things he wanted that were more important but did he get them no." I said.

"Look your dad and I are trying to give you time but the longer you take the less life your gonna have left to live." She said.

"It happened a month ago mom it's not something that takes a few weeks time." I said annoyed.

"One day your sadness is gonna kill you." She said. Walking out of my room.

Mom was right ever since that night I had taken blades to my skin but she didn't understand how am I suppose to be okay with talking about what happened in only a few weeks? To be honest my parents were being selfish rushing me to talk about it I'm gonna take as long as I want and if that's forever so be it.

"Mind if I come in?" I hear my sister say.

"Come on in." I said with a little emotion. My sister was the only one who I knew wouldn't pressure me to speak about what happened which I liked.

"So how you like your room?" She asked.

"It's nice." I said.

"So um I was wondering if you wanted to take a walk with me." She said.

"No I'm good here with Curtis." I said snuggling with my cat.

"Oh ok maybe another day." She said.

She then walked out of my room. I snuggled closer to my little Curtis and put my music on skinny love by Birdy was playing. I closed my eyes and started to hum to the music. Reality chose a shitty day to hit me harder then before.

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