Smile for me(Laurinah Fanfic)

Chapter 14 {Don't Let Go}

******Lauren's POV******

I felt so disgusted giving this fat man a lap dance, and even worst when he wrapped his arms around my waist. I was wearing a set of red lingerie that was completed with a belts that hooked to my red knee-high stockings. He grinned at me as I straddled his waist, and then he tried to kiss me. I put my hands on his chest on pushed him backwards, "Get away from me".

This made him angry and he pushed me onto the floor, causing me to hit my head pretty hard. My boss came over when he heard the commotion, "What's happening over here?" "This slut was trying to feel me up so she could take my wallet" the guy said, lying threw his crooked teeth. "that's not tr-" I was cut off by my boss. "Back stage. Now" he growled. The guy smirked at me as I got up and walked back stage.

I was sitting in my chair backstage, in front of my mirror. I looked at my reflection, but what I saw wasn't impressive at all. I was a disgusting creature. I was disappointed in what I had become after I lost Dinah. Losing Dinah was like losing myself. My whole life felt wrong without her. My heart was broke in half without her.

My thoughts were interrupted when a beer bottle was smashed by my head. I turned around quickly to see my boss fuming with anger, "What the hell is wrong with you Ginger?" "My name isn't gi-" he slapped my face, "Shut up you dirty hoe, you work for me. I own you". I was about to reply, but then he smashed the end of a bottle off and began to walk towards me. "What are you doing?" I asked frantically, and the began yelling for help.

He then threw me into the mirrors, breaking them. I felt my back get cut by the glass. He started walking over to me and I searched for my purse. If I found my purse, I would be okay. I crawled all over the floor as I tried to find it, but I wasn't quick enough. My boss came over to me and picked me up by my neck, choking me. When I looked at him, I saw Dinah's angry face when she was about to slap me. It made me cry even more. "What now Ginger, how's it feel to be silenced!?" he yelled, making me cry harder. Just as I was about to pass out, he dropped me to the floor. He spoke to me as I gasped for air, "Now be a good little girl next time".

When I could finally breathe again, I got dressed and then took a bus home. I sat on the bus alone, as if to match how I felt on the inside. I felt alone, and I felt pain. Excruciating pain that felt like no other. My heart was breaking, and I felt chest pain. It was all too much for me to handle.

When I got home I saw ally and Camila cuddling on the couch, and it made my heart hurt. It reminded me of me and Dinah. They saw my teary face and looked at me with concern, "What's wrong sweetie?" "Please, just tell me where the emergency supply kit is" I begged. "It's in my closet" Ally said while walking over to me, "What's wrong Lauren?" I just walked away and to her closet, where I found what I was looking for.

Ally saw what I grabbed, and immediately tried to grab it from me. "No ally" I yelled, running around her. I quickly ran to my bathroom, locking the door. I threw my back against it and I cried, with the cold metal object in my hands. I felt my heart actually breaking, and it hurt so bad. I had to make this pain go away, I had to end it all. So I held the object up to my head.

"Lauren, open up!" Yelled ally, as she banged on the door with all of her might. "Go away" I sobbed, my body beginning to shake. I felt more hitting the door, but it still wouldn't budge. "Lauren! Don't do this! We love you!" said Camila. I was in too much pain to even let their words process. "I'm done feeling pain, I don't want to hurt anymore" I said. "Please Lo, let us help you" they pleaded, but I just ignored then and loaded the gun.

******Dinah's POV******

I was currently being asked another question by the interviewer. "So there was some rumors going around about you and this girl at the park. Are you guys dating?" she asked, smirking at me. I sighed, "We were dating, and she made me so happy". "What happened?" I messed up really bad, and I hurt her pretty bad too. That's my biggest regret in life". "If you could say something to her today, what would you tell her?" she asked.

I turned towards the screen and took a deep breath, and then I just went for it. "Baby, if you're watching this, I want you to know that I'm sorry. You are the most beautiful person, inside and out. You brighten my life in my darkest days. Your my hero, and I wouldn't be able to do what I do without you. I don't know how I ever lived without you.You're my other half....I'm half a heart without you. If you're listening, I want to know if we can try this again?"

I didn't even notice the slight tears streaming down my face, and I quickly wiped them away. "next question please?" I asked, and then woman nodded at me sadly. Just as she was about to continue, I saw Mani trying to flag me down my from the stage. I turned back to see the interviewer just staring at me. "I'm sorry, can you say that again" I said. "Next step in your career" she asked, but I was too distracted by Mani. "I'm so sorry, but I got to take this call" I said, walking off the stage.

"what is it mani?" I said in an irritated tone. "It's Lauren, she needs you" she said, and that was all she needed to say. I ran back on stage, "I'm sorry but something came up, thank you" I said, and ran with Mani. We got in the car and I drove at the speed of light. We pulled up to the apartment and I ran up the stairs, taking three at a time. When I got there the door flung open and I saw Camila with a desperate look on her face. "Please, help Lauren" she pleaded, leading me to Lauren's locked bathroom door.

Ally was trying to break into the door, screaming for Lauren. I walked over to Ally and she gestured towards the door, "Help her. She's got a gun and I think she's gonna....." Ally couldn't finish the sentence. I felt my heart drop as I started to bang on the door, "LAUREN! LAUREN! LET ME IN, BABY! DON'T DO THIS!"

At the sound of my voice, I heard her loud sobs quiet down. "Let me go Dinah, I can't take anymore hurt" she said sadly, and it almost broke me. I hit the door hard, refusing to give up. "Please don't do this baby" I pleaded, crying with my forehead against the door. "Go get Ally and Camila, please" she said, and I was willing to do anything she wanted.

When they came in the room she started to talk. "I love you guys, all of you. But I can't do it anymore. Tell my mom and dad that I love them so much. And tell my brother and sister I love them too". I know, she sounded like she was giving up. I wasn't letting that happened. I wasn't going to lose her.

I started yelling and ramming my whole body into the door with strength I didn't know I had. "LAUREN! PLEASE OPEN UP BABY! DON'T DO THIS! I LOVE YOU! I CAN'T LOSE YOU" I screamed at the top of my lungs. "I'm sorry" I heard her whisper quietly, and then it all happened so quickly.

...............................................She pulled the trigger.