Cupid's Love

Chapter 23

Chapter 23

Then everything started dawning at her.

He had really cheated on her. The one person she told her biggest secret to had betrayed her. They weren't boyfriend and girlfriend anymore. They weren't in a relationship anymore. They weren't a couple anymore. They weren't lovers.

He had cheated, and he had lied to her on too many occasions, and there were many days where she no longer recognized the... monster he seemed to have become to her. She no longer knew who he truly was or what he might be capable of.

She felt so confused. I don't know if "confusion" is quite the right word, but... she felt so sad. Wasn't she enough for him? Was this blonde better than her?

Maybe it was jealousy, not confusion: she knew she shouldn't spare thoughts over somebody who would treat her like this, but having such a close relationship with someone over several months does mean it still hurts a lot to see them with somebody else. She was jealous that he can be so happy and in love and enjoying life with somebody else even while I'm slowly bouncing back from the ordeal, but she tried to keep herself from being jealous of the blonde bimbo he was with, she did not want to be that person that thought about herself badly, she didn't want to look down shamefully, she didn't want to think that the other girls were more perfect than her. She kept repeating a sentence deep in her mind: 'Everyone is unique and perfect in their own way'. Maybe the girl had a perfect silhouette and a body like an hourglass, but Lexy knew that her personality was better than the girl's personality. Lexy didn't go around and screw everything on her way. In fact, Lexy was still a virgin, she wanted to keep her V card to "the one" - if she ever finds him- she didn't want to lose it to any guy.

She felt betrayed too when she found out what he had been hiding or had lied about. She has her own regrets about things she did and did not do, of course, but there was nothing that to her comes remotely close to the level of betrayal and moral transgression in being unfaithful. It also raised lots of doubts in her mind about what else he had lied to her about, knowingly or not, and in turn this started making her more wary of trusting people so intimately in the future.

She was so angry, she hated him so much at this moment for doing this to her - for cheating, for lying, for acting like the last X months meant nothing to him, for being as heartless and unreasonable and unfair as she knows he is.

She also felt anger towards her. Anger towards herself for not realizing at least a little sooner and above all, for continuing to naively believe his lies, for daring to think that he felt enough remorse to finally come clean with her only to realize days later that everything he said two days ago was just another lie, for trusting him ever. Even though she rationally knew that it's not her fault per se, she also felt embarrassed when she thought about how blindly trusting she was until the very end.

Lexy was sobbing on her bed while about all these things. She went into the kitchen and grabbed all the snacks she found and went back to her room.

In times of crisis, some people lose their appetite. But Lexy, hers increases tenfold.

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Friday came, the day that Lexy promised Aiden to hang out with him at his house on.

Lexy was currently searching for a small apartment for rent. She knew that Selena wasn't bothered by her staying in her house, but she couldn't stay in her friend's house forever.

She didn't want to go to Xander's house, she wanted to stay indoors and lock herself in a room and not care that she looked like shit.

Beep Beep Lexy's phone rang when she got a message.

'I'm gonna pick you up in 50 minutes, be ready.' The message from Xander said.

'Can we postpone it to the next week? I really don't feel like going out.' She typed back.

'No we can't. Now get ready, come in your pajamas. If you don't come in your pj's, I'm gonna oblige you to put one of mines on. And don't worry about your appearance, nobody will be in the apartment except us. And you'll always be gorgeous in my eyes, however you look.'

Lexy smiled down at the phone and went to the bathroom, she changed her clothes to an overly sized shirt and some sweatpants.

--

"Make yourself comfortable." Xander said when they entered his house.

He knew that she was feeling like shit and she was sad. She needed something to give her good vibes. He wanted to change her whole mood, he wanted to make her forget about Aiden.

Lexy went to the living room and sat down on one of the couches. She still wasn't feeling like being with people. She just wanted to sit in a room alone and think about what happened and cry her eyes out.

After a while, she saw Xander's figure coming into the room with a bag full of chips, chocolate and many other things.

"So what do you wanna watch?" He asked her once he deposed the bag on the couch.

Lexy shrugged "Doesn't matter"

"So since you're sad, we need you to get your head off things. So, I'll let you pick the movie, even if it's some stupid Disney movie or a movie like The Notebook or Titanic."

Lexy grinned at him and took the remote control and started searching for movies.

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By the end of the day, they had watched The Notebook, Beauty And The Beast, Cinderella, Teen Beach Movie, All three High School Musical movies, Midnight Sun and many more.

They had nothing better to do. Their legs were entangled in each other, Lexy's head was on Xander's shoulder, and sacks of chips and popcorn were on their laps and the couch. 

Xander hated all the movies that they were watching but he was in complete and utter happiness that he was with Lexy.

"Please stay here tonight" He said looking at Lexy with hopeful eyes.

"I can't, I have work tomorrow, and I need to search for an apartment." She replied

"Forget about work, I'll talk to my father, he won't mind. And it's not necessary renting an apartment, you can stay at mine as much as you want."

"Ha ha ha, I will never be depending on anyone again." She said remembering Aiden. If she wasn't so much dependent on him, she wouldn't be here right now. Maybe she would have to another country already to continue her job as Cupid. Thinking about Cupid, she remembered that she hasn't been doing her job for a long time now.

She was jealous of everyone that she had shot in the past.
'Why do they get their happily ever after, and I don't? Why isn't there another Cupid that could shoot me and my match? Why is their love life so easy and mine so comlicated?' she thought.

Just then, her phone beeped.

She had talked to the owner of an apartment to see when she could meet up with him to rent the apartment that he had. It was him who just messaged her, saying that he could see her in two days.

Xander read the message over Lexy shoulder, and knew that there was no need in her going to search for another apartment the next day. She could stay at his apartment for the night.

"Okay, I will stay, but I'll have to go in the morning to see Cailtyn before they travel back to Mexico. They are travelling tomorrow noon."

"Okay" He replied with a smile.

-To Be Continued-

Sorry if this chapter was boring, the next one will be way more interesting. 

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