Not Alone

FIGHT

PDV Elise***

The only woman I loved the most in the world, the only woman who showed me what love was, the only woman who knew how to cheer me up! the only woman whose confidence I have to give everything, as a friendship, as a love, and above all my life! She cheated on me.

But who is she ?? Why she did that! Why she was not faithful! I let a tear fall and I turn to leave I hear her getting up and picking up her clothes on the floor.

N- Elise..

I dont want to hear her

N- Elise please..

E- stop right now.

I stop and turn to look at her. I cry, my face is red and my eyes can not follow my own tears.

N- Babe please..

E- Dont even call me babe Natasha ! HOW COULD YOU!??

She looks down, her dry eyes start to become wet

N- I drank, I drank too much! I did not want that! I did not even know what I was doing! I did not even know who I was! I am sorry!! please i'm sorry !!!

Im thinking so hard..

E- You know what! I do not even want to hear you Natasha. Yesterday I was watching for you all night and you were not even there. You did not even take the time to come and see if I was alive. You were too busy talking to her! You were so drunk that I no longer existed for you! I do not even want to hear you! I am no longer able and what you prove today is that you are not able to be faithful to the person you love ... if you have ever loved me! LEAVE ME ALONE AND I DONT WANT TO TALK WITH YOU FOR A BIG MOMENT.

N- STOP ! I LOVE YOU AND I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED OK ?? I made a mistake and I will never do it again! It's abused .. and I abused too! But tell yourself that I was not aware of what I was doing! it's not me and I did not feel good either! I felt something weird in me! I dont even know what I did because I was so much drunk.

oh okay!

E- So you tell me that you felt something so strong that it makes you decide to sleep with her ??? HOW FUCKING STUPID ARE YOU NATASHA! I would have never done something like that and you know it! Whenever we are drunk, we always stay close so we dont break each other's heart and because we love each other so much that it would never happen ... BEFORE TODAY!

Her tears have multiplied .. Mines too and my voice will leave me .. I have too much pain .. everywhere! I feel sick..

N- I LOVE YOU OKAY!!!! fuck ! I dont know !

I go down the last step of her stairs and I go quickly to the door.

E- Dont talk to me.

I open the door and come out breathless. I'm going to vomit .. I feel it. I run a little further to go next to a tree and leave me emptied of suffering.

A voice is coming closer to me. It's her ... I dont want to look at her ..

***- Im sorry.. it's not her fault, dont be against her please.

I wipe my mouth with my coat sleeve and look into her eyes.

E- Haha ... you know what. I dont care. I dont care about how shes feeling now ! what shes currently living! I dont care! YOU WERE A GOOD FRIEND, MY GREAT FRIEND AND THEN! YOU DECIDE TO FUCK WITH MY GIRLFRIEND BACK? ARE YOU EVEN OKAY STEVIE !!! ?? DO YOU KNOW HOW BAD I LOVED HER! AND HOW BAD IM HATING YOU NOW???? move and go hide yourself from shame.

And I leave..

PDV Natasha***

I cant believe

The door of my house opens .. It's Stevie ..

Stevie- Natasha

Even if I would like to get her out of my house .. I'm not going to get her out .. I'm too shocked and weak for that. I'm afraid to be alone ..

She comes in and my first reflex is to run in her arms and cry .

N- I .. I ..I just ..I just dont know ..

She clearly did not expect me to come in her arms but she surrounded me right after.

Stevie-..I mean.. Im so sorry

She's crying too. She tells me that she dont like to see me cry and hurt.

N- Can we go out?

She moves away from my body and looks at me confused

Stevie- What do you mean.. Out? Like drink?

I nod

Stevie- Again?? are you sur its a good idea?

I nod again with my tears..

Stevie- Okay.. If you want.. and euhh I dont know if you remember but you bite me.

I laugh a little and leave

N- haha what do you mean?

Stevie- My neck.. You bite my neck Nat..

I stop and look at her. her neck is red from her dry blood.

N- oops? I dont know why .. Anyways, can we go ?

She nods

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N- hahahah but the thing in all this is that I think Spencer wants to make a movie and then look at us hahaha i'm in the caca.. Im just gonna be alone! I dont know if it's real, its a rumor I think.

Stevie- Ok ok Nat.. you are drunk. We are leaving.

N- no! I dont want to leave !

Stevie- Its 2 am Natasha.. Go.. Im drunk too but not that bad.

N- Okok BYYYYEEE

Im so stupid tonight

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PDV Stevie***

When we got home, we were almost able to walk. Alcohol is not good for you kids hahaha.

I was about to leave but she took my hand to bring me on the couch.

Her hands touch my body in a sensual way. I try to get away from her but she holds me back and tells me to stay there. Her eyes look at me, this look, I saw that look somewhere already. She dont have that usual look ..

Stevie- Natasha..

Even if I would like to leave, her touch attracts my body to her and here we are again .. drunk and sexual

N- shuut.. enjoy the moment.

And DARK. I am no longer conscious. I pass out.. I dont know whats going on.

PDV Natasha***

I love the taste of it.. I cant stop.