Not Alone

STEVIE

PDV Natasha ****

I let her in and I took her hand to bring her into the living room.

N- sit down please

She hesitates a lot but decides to sit down anyway. She really feel anxious and hesitant... it does not surprise me either .. I bit her 2 - 3 times and I dont think she wants me to take her for supper tonight .. Even if that would tempt me with the good blood she provides.

N- don't worry, I wont bit..

She laughs anxiously and looks at me with one eyebrow raised until I really tell the truth..

N- I swear.. Not tonight !

She who thought to be relieved, me who is stupid and who says '' not tonight '' I did not think about my words

N- Oh I mean.. never again trust me..

Stevie- I hope so..

The atmosphere was very weird, I had to learn a lot to control myself to not continue to hurt my friends ..

N- Anyways, I'm sorry for these two nights that I hurt you..

Stevie- But you did it..

N- I was not me, you must understand also that I would never cheat on Elise if I would not have been a vampire .. I want you to understand that my temptations to you were not just for sex or for love .. I mean, yes, you're very attractive and I'm not going to lie to you .. I was tempted by you when I was drunk, but only because I was drunk and forced by my own body to go to you.

Stevie - So you were attracted to me sexually and because you were in your period of transformation

N- Oh Stevie look at you .. you're beautiful and generous ... I love that about you .. You're a beautiful person and I'm not going to lie to you that love may have crossed once, some years ago first days that I knew you. But Elise today is the one I love and I dont accept the fact that I hurt her in two ways.

Stevie - But .. you change..

N- I hurt you too and I'm extremely sorry I did that. You are one of my best friends and I can not make someone live that again. Now that you know I'm a vampire, I dont want you to be scared of me. I would understand if you need time to get over it but please .. dont exclude me from your life .. I may be a monster in the eyes of the world who know who I am and who will know if one day it reaches them, but I dont want to be a monster in your eyes ..

She gave me a smile and went to my kitchen to get a glass of water as if it were home.

Stevie - Natasha, you need to understand too that you're a vampire .. I mean .. it's not normal !!! it's in movies and books !! Yourself ! You play Carmilla, a vampire in a serie that is going very well today! Who would have thought that Natasha Negovanlis, a beautiful woman, almost black hair so much that they are dark, beautiful face and beautiful personality, would have been a vampire who kills ??

I crossed my legs and began to caress my dog with the stress she gives me.

Stevie- I was bitten twice by you. I dont know what to say today. Hey everybody !! I got bitten by my friend, why? oh because she's a vampire ?? No Natasha .. I respect you enough for that not to tell everyone that my best friend is a vampire. But all that has marked me! I dont feel well, it's like I was been used by you for your desires .. Sexual and mortal!

She is right and I am so ashamed to hear her words out loud. I am ashamed i am ashamed !! I look at the floor because I'm afraid to look at her in the eyes.

Stevie - I'm not going to hide ... yes I've been scared of you since you bit me .. but you just proved to me that you could be at your business and respectful from now on with me. Natasha .. You need to know who you are today, otherwise you will hurt and hurt others who dont deserve to die. I dont know who you killed recently and I dont want to know because I'm not in your world, but with me, you have to be yourself and you have to know how to stand with me without biting me!

I get up to sit next to her .. I see she did not expect that.

N- Dont worry .. I'm here to prove to you that I do not just want to eat you in life hahaha

Stevie- hahaha good..

N- I listened to you and I heard you dont worry about that. Now that I understand myself, I'm going to pay a lot more attention to my actions and I'll always stay Natasha Negovanlis, child weird and stupid sometimes .

I see a more beautiful and relieving smile on her part. It helps me a lot to relax

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little bit later ****

I look at the time and see that it is 7:50 am ...

Man !! Time passes so quickly !! Elise will arrive in ..

The door knocks ..

N- Oh euh I forgot humm euh.. I mean.. Elise is here

She got up quickly and took her things right after

Stevie - Dont worry .. you probably have a lot to tell you.

She gave me a hug and opened the door. Elise's face had become colder. She let Stevie out. No contact between the two. She looks at me wanting to no longer enter my home.