Not Alone

ELISE

PDV Natasha ***

Yeah no .. her face is really not happy

N- do you want to enter? or you'll stay in front of my door all evening ..

her eyes looked at me with a really angry look.

E- You know what .. I think I would be more tempted to stay in front of your door after seeing who came out of your house.

N- Dont start thinking that I did something wrong again..

E- We never know with you..

She plays rough with me!

N- Okay! If it's to belittle me and hurt me in front of me, in the door of my house .. That's right, your reason, you should leave! But I and you, I believe from the last news, it was to talk that we wanted to see each other, not to start another fight and if that's what you want, COME INSIDE and were gonna do this in here!

Now it's me who gets harder. And I had to control myself because it could turn very badly!

E- Fine.. Let me in..

She looks at my house a bit as if it was the first time she had come .. That's not the case. She saw my dog and shouted with joy. Charlie did not stop jumping on her. He loves so much Elise.

I took the time to watch them play a little together. I miss that .. See her happy.

By the time she was with Charlie, I went to get two glasses of water. I know Elise and I know that she often has to drink water when she speaks.

When I came back, she was sitting on my balcony. Ah new place to talk. Why not.

N- here..

E- oh thanks..

She took the glass of water and drinks already without even being started talking.

N- Ok.. Do not interrupt me until the end

She nods..

N- My name is Natasha Negovanlis .. I am a vampire and I kill. I kill to feed myself and for my pleasure. I bite to relieve myself and to hurt. I am a vampire, a monster. I'm all that a vampire has to be .. Apart from those that Twilight did. It's fake. But ... I'm a vampire in Carmilla, series that I film with a beautiful person who is at my side. She plays a role importamt in the series, she plays Laura Hollis and she plays my girlfriend that I love so much! If I come back to what I wanted to say .. I'm also a real life vampire .. Did I want that? No, and I would never have believed. As Stevie said, all that happens only in movies or books. I believe it too! Now that I'm picking myself up to be a monster, I can not do much Elise .. I can not change myself, I'm afraid too of being who I am, I dont really know who I am honestly. I dont want to be a monster for you ..

I see her follow every word I say. She is very attentive as a person and I adore when I really see that she listens to me.

N- I'm sorry for doing things with Stevie. I am ashamed and I regret. I am a sincere person and you know it ... I unfortunately use her for my vampire desires. I am a cruel person. If the vampire in me would not have gone out, I would never have cheated on you. And that's the truth! Why I even did sexual things with her? it's just all the tensions and hormones that my body has to provide since my transformation. My loss of control was awful .. I could not do anything .. And I did not know what to do, what thought .. know that I had hurt you but that I was a vampire. What to put first on the list of the most important things to manage first .. I dont know seriously. I was lost. I love you too much for that Elise .. I see my life with you, I see my death .. I mean, I saw my death with you. I love you so much that I see ourselves marrying Elise.. with childrens !! That's how much I love you! We are a known "couple"! The Fans want us to be together because we are made to be together. Our personality are connected and it's not for nothing!

She is still lost in my voice. She stays mobile and listens to me.

N- Today I am still the same person .. same personality. I'm just a vampire. Am I the only one? I dont know .. I did not have time to talk with my mother again. I was worried about too much things .. But being a vampire will not stop me from loving you. To see you, makes me dream and makes me even more in love with you. I respect you and I will never bite you! I dont want to hurt you. I have my prayers and I know them .. I'm not going to jump on the people I love. Especially, on the one and only... I dont know what you want from me .. that I am better, that I am more affectionate with you, that I am more cautious, that I am more open .. I dont know! But I know one thing .. I can not change into a human. I'm so sorry.. Im truly sorry Elise..

Tears of fear ran down my cheeks .. I am serious in all my words ..

One of his hands took my chin to lift it .. She gave me a little smile and moved closer to me ..

E- I know.. I know you wont do it again.. I know who you are now.. I know what to expect with you now.. Im no longer afraid to look at you.. Im no longer afraid to see how beautiful you are.. Even has a vampire. I love you too Natasha.. But promise me one thing..

I nod

E- I dont want you to be scared of wanting to hurt me just because you have to feed yourself or something else. Knowing that you see other people and that you eat them .. I dont want your mouth to be shared by everyone .. Please .. find you a way to feed yourself without eating someone.. Im in love with a girl, even if she's a vampire..

N- sure I will do my best for you..

her eyes stared at mine and then move towards my mouth .. Even if I could see the second run down, her lips was on mine.

AHHHHHH

- Gab