Not Alone

STEVIE OR ELISE

PDV Natasha ***

Two days have passed since we received the script. Two days that I try to calm down. I'm not ready to embark on the set. I'm not comfortable to face Elise who is always angry with me and who knows my secret, my biggest secret.

I have to talk to Elise soon. I love her so much and I cant let it destroy us and block us to film one of the most important film that the fans have been waiting for a while .. even if they dont know it happens.

I watch TV since this morning. Yes it shows how much I am lost and taken with myself. As I was about to get up to go and grab something to drink and eat, my phone vibrated twice.

They are from Stevie and.. Elise. Woah synchronization.

From CutieStevie :

Hey Natasha... I think we need to talk..

From Cupcake <3 :

Humm we need to talk and you know why Natasha..

How I ended up in this position

To CutieStevie :

Mhh yea I know.. when?

To Cupcake <3 :

I Know.. for the movie..

From CutieStevie :

I can't tonight, but tomorrow night yes

From Cupcake<3 :

Not just for the movie Natasha.. You know the rest. Can't tonight because i'm with Kaitlyn, but tomorrow night I can.

Woah.. They need to stop being the same in their messages

To CutieStevie :

hummm yes okay, can you be there around 5pm ?

To Cupcake <3 :

Yea yea okok, humm its okay at 8pm ?

From CutieStevie :

Sure! no problem

From Cupcake <3 :

Good for me !

To CutieStevie :
Okay ! good hum see you tomorrow then!

To Cupcake <3 :

Good okay.. good

From CutieStevie :

Yepppp xx

From Cupcake <3 :

OK.. so see you later I guess..

I close my phone with a sigh and rub my eyes more than once. I'm discouraged and I want to finish as soon as possible so that's why I want to see both tomorrow. It will be tight.

The next day ***

I fell asleep on my sofa last night. A beer in hand, a bottle of wine in the other, a bottle of Gin on the table and a bottle of Vodka on the floor. Woah I get busy for one night and I remember nothing. Already, I'm afraid to get up with the sickness that I'm going to have, man I feel it already.

I put my hand through my hair, dirty and greasy. I feel so disgusting and horrible. Who drinks alone to forget everything? Me .. shame. I dont even know the time. I know one thing! I went to bed at 4am and had great difficulty not dreaming of Elise to make me cry again. I dont like what love can do to a person. I just dont like it when the love of two people can be broken by a simple stupid mistake of my fault.

Life is really hard when I think about it. Well, I have to get up.

N- what time is it..?

I look at my clock and try to open my eyes bigger to see if I can see the time on the round object that hangs on my wall. 3pm fuck. I run everywhere with a heart ache and a headache. I'm looking for my phone to see if it's the right time.

N- 3 pm.. shit I have two hours

My dog, wheres my dog?

N- Charlie???

A ball of hair enters the living room. He was probably sleeping too. Shit, he must be hungry poor dog.

N- I know baby.. I'm a bad mother, sorry love..

Omg.. I need blood.

a strong sensation rises in me. I have to drink blood and fast. A chance I keep provisions in case. I know myself too well.

The red liquid flows down my throat as if nothing had been. I love this deadly taste. This color that has changed my mood, this taste that gives me the feeling of wanting it again and again.

I wipe myself with my hand that smells alcohol and looks at my dog who devours his meal.

N- Same Charlie, same.. haha

I laugh a little and start to regain my strength. It just took blood to feel stronger I guess. It's a bit normal in my case

..

5PM**

My door knocks

I open it

Stevie- Hey Natasha!

I give her a smile

N- Hey lovely girl..

Sorry to post a little late, I have a job now and it's a lot more complicated to have to put everything in every day but the evening is the best time. I settle with the time and voila!